Hello! I'm Maksim, but you can call me Max! :^)
I'm 18 years old, I love to write and produce music, I have a beautiful girlfriend and two beautiful cats, and I'm FTM transgender.
My story is a bit of a wacky one. Back when I was 12, I realized that there was a word for how I was feeling. I felt like I was born the wrong gender, and when I found out that being transgender was an actual thing, I felt so relieved! I immediately told my mom and dad, who rejected it at first, but finally allowed me to socially transition when I was 14. The only condition was that I had to act as masculine as possible.
Now, the thing with me is that I don't feel like a masculine guy at all. I feel quite feminine, and guys can obviously be feminine, but due to the intense pressure from both my parents and society as a whole to be masculine, I kind of caved and retracted all the work I'd put into socially transitioning. I told people that I had just been confused, and that I actually identified as a girl, but it was all lies so I could express my femininity to its fullest. Unfortunately this came at a great price, and took a huge toll on my self esteem.
I've been very solid in my identity since I first discovered it. Despite not having masculine personality traits or way of expression, I know in my soul that I'm a guy.
I recently re-came out to my girlfriend and a few of my friends, and I have yet to talk to my parents about this. The reception of this has been well so far, and I can only hope that from my parents it will be the same!
I'm looking forward to sharing my journey to transition with you all!! :^)
