Ah....yes and no?
I started T as soon as possible because I assumed the way the system was I would never get a choice if I didnt take it RIGHT NOW. I changed my name and pronouns because it made me feel good.
I grew up in a home that hated masculinity in females, so Im wondering if I decided to stay if I could wear boy clothes and have short hair and stuff. If I just had a few years that way Im wondering if I wouldve still felt like transitioning. I used to be worried about being called a "dyke" or lesbian but I'm over it now, I already cause enough head tilts being trans.
I still feel better with a male voice, male body, and people referring to me as male. I dont think I'd much like being called "ma'am". I dont know why but something about being a guy just "clicks", it feels right. If I wasnt a guy it would make me feel awful. No matter what you do people are always going to have preconceptions of you based on your sex, even as a maculine female you still get called sweetheart, honey, and generally treated like a woman until proven otherwise. That's not a really good reason to be a man, I know, its why I originally had my doubts back before considering myself trans. Although being a male just takes the weight off my shoulders in having to prove myself not-female, people look at me and they automatically think male things.
Have I considered not needing to transition? Yes, before and I still do. Am I considering detransitioning? No and I dont think I will, I've come too far to get to this state of confidence and happiness. Ive effectively changed my identity, and I look and feel better. If its wrong or unnescessary it'll be a hassle to go back to the way things were again. Its not a big deal, Im just me.