It's stupid and I really hesitate saying anything on this subject but, You're a friend and you asked.
I was very close to suicide, I was sitting on my bed. I was crying, but not those sobbing cries, I was past that. I was sitting there thinking about how, when, how it would affect those around me, if I could change the Karmic reprocussions somehow, if 'I've been good enough to balance out the negative.' You know how Your mind goes round and round and round and You just can't really stop it? All those thoughts suddenly stopped and I ... thought I heard? maybe just thought? I don't know but it was a simple, "Hush Sweety, I love you and you'll be alright" ... the thing is... I am really not sure if I was awake, or fell asleep a few seconds later. it either happened two seconds before I was asleep, or two seconds afterwards, I had thought I was sitting up, but that may have been dreaming, I don't know. All I do know, is that those words have influenced my decisions since I heard / thought / dreamed them.
That's it. I don't know if it was god, or my own concioussness, or my soul trying to prevent me from making a decision, I don't know what it was. But, it was important. I don't think it could have come from my own mind though simply because it was so against my own thoughts at the time. I don't think my own mind, in that particular state, could have created that thought.
I wasn't drunk (I drink extremely rarely) and I don't do drugs.
Jessica