I agree with your concerns about the afterlife, that among other things keeps me going. The other thing that I've found keeps me going is that I do want to experience life as a woman.  No I can't go back and be born female, that ship sailed almost 40 years ago.  I don't believe in reincarnation either and even if I did, how could I be certain I'd come back as a female human?  The fact is after these 39 years in the wrong body, I want to know what it's like to be in the right body, in the right role within society.  What is it like to be treated like a woman, what does it feel like to actually be able to act as women are expected to act, what it's it like to interact with other women on a peer to peer level? 

Do I feel trapped, yes, many times. However, I know there is hope of something better.  I get anxious wishing it could happen tomorrow and knowing it won't, but I also know that if I keep going through the process eventually I will realize something great in my life. 

The same can go for you or anyone else feeling the way you do.  There is some hopelessness in our situations but if we can push through that temporary feeling, we realize there is much to look forward to.

I am a very rational person, in fact, I work as an engineer and live in a world of science and fact. But I have experienced much paranormal activity in my life, so I believe its true. I don't buy what religion says happens to us. But our souls are real. If you eve get the chance, watch the Dead Files. Amy Allan has much insight into the next world. You can also watch Ghostly Encounters. Not all the stories seem true, but there are some compelling accounts. Look up "kat and the hag" on YouTube.

My point is that this is not the last chapter of your existence. Our purpose here is to grow spiritually, to become a more complete being. I think at least part of it is to grow in compassion and empathy for others, regardless of our personal struggles.

Im going to go out and say a very unpopular belief and I may even get ''smitted'' for doing so but here is my beleif. No, I do not think that there is an afterlife. I do beleive in YOLO (you only live once). As far as I am concerned when you die that is it, there is nothing else there. I think and ''after-life'' is a way for people to justify their own exisitence and becuase many people are afraid that this, what we have right now is it. Basically, we gotta make this life counts because there probably isnt anything after this one (as there is no real scientific backings so there is little reason to assume there is an after-life). Now, there may very well be and I could be eating crow when I die. But, this has been my motivation to make me a better me in this life and work on all the good, bad and ugly. Also, dont be in sorrow by yourself girl. If you need an ear, PM me <3

Huggles-Ashley

Quote from: GrayKat on March 03, 2017, 10:54:09 PM
I am a very rational person, in fact, I work as an engineer and live in a world of science and fact. But I have experienced much paranormal activity in my life, so I believe its true. I don't buy what religion says happens to us. But our souls are real. If you eve get the chance, watch the Dead Files. Amy Allan has much insight into the next world. You can also watch Ghostly Encounters. Not all the stories seem true, but there are some compelling accounts. Look up "kat and the hag" on YouTube.

My point is that this is not the last chapter of your existence. Our purpose here is to grow spiritually, to become a more complete being. I think at least part of it is to grow in compassion and empathy for others, regardless of our personal struggles.

I could be cynical, I for whatever reason have a girl who died in the 1980s pop into my dreams and such here and there. On the other hand, the scientific part of me says its just an over-thinking mind

I've formed a number of strange beliefs based around experiences I've had, suffice it to say it doesn't match up with any religion, they've probably all been twisted for various grand purposes through the centuries. I don't know if an afterlife even exists, let alone what that consists of, but any sensible religion preaches love above all else. Love yourself, love everyone around you, even if they don't deserve it. Taking your own life is the worst sin, not because of any book or god who would pass judgement arbitrarily, but because of those who love you that you're leaving behind, even if you haven't met them yet.

Update: I'm feeling better today... i guess.

I cried twice today so far. I just felt tired and needed to take a break while doing the dishes.

Today just happens to be my mom's birthday. I couldn't imagine killing myself on her birthday or on a day near it.

My sadness and depression is triggered by thoughts and visions of horrible things happening.

It would be upsetting if someone were to kill themself without reaching out first to a helpline.

Anna, I wake up every morning and that is when my nightmare begins. What keeps me going is that others depend on me. My father, his cats and mine are dependent on me keeping going. Extending my compassion to others improves my Being. And that is the only thing we carry into the afterlife, the essence of who we are.

Try volunteering time at a nursing home, a hospital, an animal shelter, or a charity. All these activities will do wonders for you helping those less fortunate than yourself. Start small and see where it takes you.