Wow. Can I relate to you post. My father hasn't talked to me since 2002. Sometimes people just don't come around, it's very true. Most of the time, they do however. At leI was going to offer you something on the issue of Faith. I'm not a believer myself, but I do know a conservative Lutheran Pastor that that did who does a pretty decent job convincing herself she's within the bounds of her faith.

She has a blog on her faith and transition dialog if your interested. And she's just a little over a week post-op too.
https://eilerspizza.wordpress.com/

Goodluck

Thanks Emma, oh I hope he comes around sooner than that :S
And yes as someone who believes in God, being trans has been a tough old thing to get passed mentaly.
I think I am pretty happy now though about it, i do not worry so much no more.
I'll check out this girls blog,

Quote from: ChristineRachel on April 19, 2017, 10:09:48 AM
Thanks Markie, I hope that's what happens :')
Only problem is even if that is the case I will probably still be paranoid thinking people are clocking me.

I understand  a long time ago I had a date with a trans girl when I first met her my jawed dropped.. she was stunning  but  she freaked out.. and said what's the matter  !?
anyway to cut along story short eventually  she told me she was on Xanax as she had anxiety  about people  clocking  her it was sad because  the reason anyone looked at her was because  she was gorgeous so absolutely passable voice everything  but she just couldn't  see it
Personally  it would  not worry me to be clocked if I ever get that far ... as long as I looked good in fact I think I would never try to hide it... I guess I would  be proud  to be trans... Bits that's just me 😊

Yea, I wouldn't deny it if someone asked, i don't think so.
It's a scary thing, but not something I would be ashamed of, I am who I am like

I'd avoid the question if I could and probably deny it if I had to.

Unlike many I am actually ashamed of who/what I was before.
Sure there was a lot of good but I was also mental & emotional cripple (many suspected autism including me) while being a slave to T impulses which was embarrassing tbh.

Fortunately I consider my trans past to be like a birth defect that has finally been fixed.
Those that know don't care (in the best possible way ofc) and those that don't have no need to.
I don't expect others to know about it or for it to come up in conversation but would still feel awkward if ambushed with it.

Serious denial issues for sure but I'm ok with that.

On the God side of things she & I get along just fine. In fact I'd say we get along a lot better now than we used to. My religion before and after is Roman Catholic with no churchy issues but let's just say I'm flexible from a faith standpoint. I understand she had to have me born as a guy to make my kids (who I'd never change for anything) so I can forgive her for that and thank her at the same time. Talk about moving in mysterious ways sheesh.

Everyone sees a different way forward, to me if someone asks me about it, they probably know, so denying it would appear to them that I am imbarassed of my past or ashamed of it. I would prefer to stand tall with pride for not giving up and pushing forward

You know, I never talk about trans stuff outside my intimate personal life/wife/kids or with a very short list of trans friends that I've had for a long time. No one has ever asked me anything or made any attempt to lead me into a conversation about it.  I have a hard time believing I haven't been clocked in more than a decade, but I guess people respect me enough they just don't go there. I don't really have an answer why that is, but it works for me.😁 If it did I'd be honest, but that doesn't mean I'd out myself either.

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