Hi Monica, thanks for the support. I do need to get out and surgeries are definitely getting old. I need round 2 for hair, BA and a correction with my jowls. I will see about VFS after another few months of voice training and using my full voice at work and elsewhere. I think Dr. McGinn's point was to live life and not do surgeries to some day feel complete.
I dilated Thursday morning and then Friday when I came home from work. Everything went well. Yes, once a day

. My vagina looks beautiful and I am so incredibly happy I had GCS and it is finally behind me.
I saw my therapist Thursday. I went over some of the same old issues that are beginning to get old. I really need to look forward and just leave the past behind. I am tired of living in the past. I think I agree with her I have repeated my past and I will continue to do so until I break the pattern. I am ready.
I was walking down 12th street in the gayborhood after my therapist appointment. A guy walked up to me and said you are cute, talk to me. I stopped and he started a conversation. I could see he was very under the influence. I listened and we talked for a minute or two and then I said good by. Next I saw my trainer in the alley next to the gym training a guy. We chatted for a few minutes; the first thing she said was your doctor is spot on, you need to get on with your life. My next encounter was a monk, he grabbed my hand; he had a bracelet of beads which I said no thank you. It was not prepared to have someone grab my hand. Next time I will give him a donation. I think he had a bracelet of beads that represented prayers he said. I could tell he was a nice person. Then a healthy dinner and on to Macys Urban Decay for some makeup.
Group was good and one of the woman at group is going to the same voice therapist I am and we meet at the voice therapist office Wednesday. She is very nice.
The lawyer said she sent the DRO's to the Court and our divorce will be soon. Odd feeling, I just want it over and get on with things. I hope my wife, daughter and I can go out to dinner once in a while. I wish we could go down the shore and rent a house 1 week a year like we use to do. Perhaps some day they will be more comfortable in public with me.