Quote from: CharleeGrrl on June 03, 2017, 01:33:44 PM
Hi! I read your message to Sadie and I want to tell you that you have nothing to fear. Truly!
   Don't be afraid; most people at a professional level "see it all, do it all". And they need to make money to pay rent, eat food, just like everybody else.
   So don't be afraid to ask about services and prices. Use your femme name, and explain truthfully who you really are, and what your objectives are.
   Most women are pretty sympathetic to mtf's. I'm not sure why; maybe its because we're "joining the club"?
   Write down everything and write back to us all so we can go there, too!
   Lots of love and light to you from beautiful Idaho!

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Hi CharleeGrrl,

  That post was written a little while ago. Since then I have had 2 sessions (3 hours) with Christine at All Clear Electrology in Wilsonville, Or. She is the one I mentioned that is not in Portland and am happy with her so fair. I've written more about this and my transition in my thread Here I go Again at https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,220953.620.html

  Idaho huh? The places I've been in Idaho have been fairly desolate except way up in the far north. I've been through on I84 mostly but have also been through the Naval weapons testing range and Craters of the Moon areas also.  I will probably be passing through on I84 again soon.

  Thanks for the tips and encouragement.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Well I don't think I've been triggered so much as in these past few days but I seems to be calming now. It tends to come in waves with me, it never lasts so I know I'll bounce back.

Had my monthly wax and threading today which I always enjoy, although they refused to honer my loyalty card with a free session which annoyed me a lot as i've always been a good tipper. They also charge me £2 extra for gendering me incorrectly so I think I need to find a better place to park my eyebrows.

Got a tg group meeting this Saturday which always gives me an excuse to get my glad rags on and have a good chinwag with the ladies and a nice cup of tea. Still haven't found my place within the group as my social skills aren't up to scratch just yet but I'm working on it.

Nothing else much to report, other than doctor and shrink appointments that I won't bore you with. So hey ho, Sadie's bouncing back, should be on top form by next week. Sometime this stuff just takes time to process, I think if I didn't have rough patches I'd be more worried.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Quote from: Shy on June 06, 2017, 05:16:52 PM
Well I don't think I've been triggered so much as in these past few days but I seems to be calming now. It tends to come in waves with me, it never lasts so I know I'll bounce back.

That is really horrible when it happens...as I progress through this journey I find the things that will trigger a huge emotional response are constantly in flux, do you find the same?...there are some givens but then wham something out of the blue will just slam me, you know, unexpected stuff, yesterday for example as I sat in my car after doing the shopping I watched a woman with her 5 or 6 year old little girl affectionately stroking her hair...this lead to a series of thoughts...and...well...we all know how that play ends!!! Dysphoria

This is the type of stuff that catches me totally off guard...totally unexpected...sound familar?

I hope you are feeling a bit better, it can take awhile though especially when you get slammed by one after the other which is how it normally happens. Not in "cope able" amounts!

Hugs

Liz

Quote from: ElizabethK on June 06, 2017, 09:49:04 PM

emotional response are constantly in flux, do you find the same?
This is the type of stuff that catches me totally off guard...totally unexpected...sound familar?

I hope you are feeling a bit better, it can take awhile though especially when you get slammed by one after the other which is how it normally happens. Not in "cope able" amounts!

Hugs

Liz

It all gets a bit like this sometimes Liz as I try to juggle and make sense of things, but it usually comes good in the end 



Feeling much better today, off to paint my parents front room for them so I have a nice distraction. Keeping busy always help I find.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Well spent the week decorating my parents house, still lots to do. My mum has this great knack of hinting that now the living room's been done the kitchen looks like it could really do with a spruce up. I can see this pattern continuing for the rest of the house and probably the outside too.

Been much better in myself, brought some new eyeshadow and a nice bright pink lipstick for the summer that cheered me up. Funny how these little things make a big difference.

Had fun at the local TG group, I can see that some of those girls are going to be a bad influence on me with talk of night clubs shenanigans and curry houses. I'm tea total and not a teenager anymore I keep telling them, but they're having none of it. I said I'll go to the local pride with them instead which seemed to get a few grunts of approval, so I may have gotten away with it for now; Although I suspect they'll have me dressed in a tutu and feather boa for the pleasure:

So it's back to full time for me, wobble over Bright eyed and bushy tailed this morning, mission "M" is back on, in fact I might book an appointment for next week. I've never had a full facial, so I may plump for that.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Quote from: Shy on June 11, 2017, 05:37:38 AM
Well spent the week decorating my parents house, still lots to do. My mum has this great knack of hinting that now the living room's been done the kitchen looks like it could really do with a spruce up. I can see this pattern continuing for the rest of the house and probably the outside too.

Been much better in myself, brought some new eyeshadow and a nice bright pink lipstick for the summer that cheered me up. Funny how these little things make a big difference.

Had fun at the local TG group, I can see that some of those girls are going to be a bad influence on me with talk of night clubs shenanigans and curry houses. I'm tea total and not a teenager anymore I keep telling them, but they're having none of it. I said I'll go to the local pride with them instead which seemed to get a few grunts of approval, so I may have gotten away with it for now; Although I suspect they'll have me dressed in a tutu and feather boa for the pleasure:

So it's back to full time for me, wobble over Bright eyed and bushy tailed this morning, mission "M" is back on, in fact I might book an appointment for next week. I've never had a full facial, so I may plump for that.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

That's great you are able to do that for your Mum...resistance is futile....this is the one person in the world how probably knows how to manipulate(nicely) you to do anything...I know my Mother could...worst still is at our age you know exactly what they are doing, they also know that you know....but we still do it LOL

Nice to hear you are feeling better about yourself and I agree it is the small things that can make a huge difference...it reminds me of how closed I was to many things in my life

I understand about the local group stuff...nothing like a good night out to shake your stuff about but these days anything more than an hour and I am going to need a revival team ha ha ha...Ok so maybe not quite but I think you get the idea....the parade is more my speed.

Hope you have a great week

Hi SAdie,

Glad to hear you are somewhat back to your normal self (whatever that is). Go to the pride thing It won't hurt you. I survived one here so you should be able to there.

Just go do it and have fun dang it!

Hugs,
   Laurie

Thanks ladies

Just off out the door with me painting clobber on, not very ladylike, but hey it's for a good cause and usually a free feed at the end of it. The odd thing is my Dad the other day was more worried about me getting paint on my manicure than he was about getting it on the walls.
I don't think he's fully accepted me yet, there's still a lot of Freudian slips, but he's from a different generation. I'm not expecting any miraculous changes in his mid 80's other than making old man noises and odd gestures at inappropriate times. Mostly he sleeps.
Anywho mum's just been on the phone wondering where I am, so must dash or i'm for it! 

Have a lovely week ladies,

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Well my suspicions have been realised, the kitchen has been added to the list of rooms to do. I had my own personal Forman or should I say Forwoman for most of the day in the form of my mum. All she needed was a hard hat, neon jacket, possibly a bacon butty and a clip board to complete the illusion, only it wasn't an illusion and I've been roped in to doing another room.
Luckily today I had to make a swift retreat to catch the chemist before it closes, already thinking of my excuses for tomorrow but alas she's got me by the short and curlies with those puppy eyes of hers.

Spent this evening trying to work out the best way to disguise hooded eyes. I think I'm getting better with eye makeup, also really amazed at how much of an art form it all is. How a little tweak here a little soften there can really make a difference. Having fun watching videos and learning the finer things so a nice relaxing evening tonight experimenting with different colours and looks. Started out looking like a panda and worked back from there

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Well shaved my head for the first time ever today
The strange thing is that I now appear more gender neutral without my wig on, so in a way it's helped a little with my dysphoria and self image I still wear the wig from dusk to dawn though, but when I take it off It doesn't feel like such a jolt, especially if i'm wearing makeup, which I inevitably am. So for me a good move I'd say

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Quote from: Shy on June 14, 2017, 04:02:10 PM
Well shaved my head for the first time ever today
The strange thing is that I now appear more gender neutral without my wig on, so in a way it's helped a little with my dysphoria and self image I still wear the wig from dusk to dawn though, but when I take it off It doesn't feel like such a jolt, especially if i'm wearing makeup, which I inevitably am. So for me a good move I'd say

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Hi Sadie,

  You wear your wig all evening and all night then take it off during the day?  That seems odd. But then we are taking about someone strange...

  I agree it sounds weird that cutting your hair off would help with your dysphoria but hey if it works, it can't be bad.
I'm glad it does.
  Do you have your painting chores done yet?

Hugs,
   Laurie

Quote from: Laurie on June 14, 2017, 04:44:28 PM
Hi Sadie,

  You wear your wig all evening and all night then take it off during the day?  That seems odd. But the we are taking about someone strange...

  I agree it sounds weird that cutting your hair off would help with your dysphoria but hey if it works, it can't be bad.
I'm glad it does.
  Do you have your painting chores done yet?

Hugs,
   Laurie

Lol, yeh i'm a vampire and it sucks meant to say dawn till dusk.

I didn't have much hair left to shave off, but glad what little I did have is gone. Seems to have helped some as I now look very androgynous leaning towards feminine with a little makeup.

Painting chores are going well, done the living and dining rooms. I have a stay of reprieve whilst my parents argue over what new carpet to choose, that could take a while as they can only fight it out between naps and gameshows on the TV.

Hope the preparations for expedition Laurie are going well, should be leaving base camp soon now girl, eh? It's sounds like it's going to be a fun trip for you.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Quote from: Shy on June 15, 2017, 03:17:20 AM

Lol, yeh i'm a vampire and it sucks meant to say dawn till dusk.

Hope the preparations for expedition Laurie are going well, should be leaving base camp soon now girl, eh? It's sounds like it's going to be a fun trip for you.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

  I knew you meant that, but that doesn't stop me from taking a shot at a target of opportunity. lol
(speaking of shots and targets.. I wonder how that Moanknee is doing)

  Preparations are going well for hitting the road this evening. (translation: Having coffee thinking about what to make for breakfast and what to pack)

  Glad you are getting a rest between rooms while negotiations are underway. btw is carpet installation also one of your domestic skills?

  Enjoy your rest period.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Have fun Laurie, drive safe and don't do anything I wouldn't do 
Give the ladies a big hug from me when you meet them, even dear old mongoose bless her cotton socks, I bet she's a big softie really.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Quote from: Shy on June 15, 2017, 12:12:11 PM
Have fun Laurie, drive safe and don't do anything I wouldn't do
Give the ladies a big hug from me when you meet them, even dear old mongoose bless her cotton socks, I bet she's a big softie really.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Sadie,

  I'll try to do that for you but remember I get distracted easily and sometime suffer from sometimers, and sometimes suffer from sometimers, and somet...

  Hugs,
   Laurie

Just painted my toe nails GREEN (almost minty) in honour of your salon visit, sorry road trip

Quote from: davina61 on June 15, 2017, 03:44:45 PM
Just painted my toe nails GREEN (almost minty) in honour of your salon visit, sorry road trip

Lol, I remember the first colour I painted my toe nails was British Racing Green. I even got adventurous once and added a beige racing stripe.

When's this road trip going to start already? I mean I've brought the snacks in, popcorn's on the go and the drinks are on ice I guess there's Greenwhich Mean Time and there's Laurie time. A thousand monkeys could have written the complete works of Shakespeare in the time it's taken Laurie to pack her undies.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Quote from: davina61 on June 15, 2017, 03:44:45 PM
Just painted my toe nails GREEN (almost minty) in honour of your salon visit, sorry road trip

Hreen? Noooo ! Hot Pink!!





Still drying...


Hugs,
   Laurie

Quote from: Shy on June 15, 2017, 05:56:43 PM
Lol, I remember the first colour I painted my toe nails was British Racing Green. I even got adventurous once and added a beige racing stripe.

When's this road trip going to start already? I mean I've brought the snacks in, popcorn's on the go and the drinks are on ice I guess there's Greenwhich Mean Time and there's Laurie time. A thousand monkeys could have written the complete works of Shakespeare in the time it's taken Laurie to pack her undies.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

I've been busy with important things.

Hugs,
   Laurie

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