QuoteHow so?  I said I'd like larger breasts.  Someone else mentioned they'd like more feminine curves?  What's wrong with that, even if we can't go all the way to full transition?

There's nothing wrong with any of it other than making your life a whole lot more difficult. I'm sure you don't live on a magic island where the current political and religious dynamics of the world aren't lapping at your doorstep. Of course, this is a much different scenario at 23 than it is at 63. If you're looking at retirement and you don't have to worry about the ramifications of interacting with people for an income or worry about your safety you can afford to throw caution to the wind anyway you please.

Wow  Emma. To be so concise and correct.

I have seen it in the only trans people that I have reached out to locally, they have nothing to lose. I feel nothing in common with them.

I lost everything, friends and family, everything but 3 people. When a retired person tells me...

No, let me make this more precise.

When someone who tells me how I should be, anyone who doesn't have a clue and is risking nothing, I almost hate them for a second. If you don't care about passing or live in an area where it doesn't matter. If you are a virgin who has no Idea what two people can do together. If you are older and have nothing to lose. If you are younger and some things come so easily. You know don't you? So please comments relevant to what you know.

Once again let's go back to a individual basis.

No I personally could not. It's not a dress code, sexual need or whim that I need to explore, it's who I am.

Eight years on the life saving elixirs of HRT and living the male life. The good days vastly outnumber the bad. I am mostly able to manage the GD without putting at risk all the other aspects of what makes me, Me.

Maybe the rest.

One day at a time. I never expected to more along the transition road today then during my two utter failed experiments of my youth

I'm force to live this reality
I hate it and I just want to live fully as a woman
Im on the hrt since 2008 (I was still in the school back then )
And now many years later I cannot live as woman and I'm force to live as guy ( which I hate it and it's very obvious that I'm not a guy so it's cause a lot of problem )

My only hope to live as my true self as woman is to be in place where trans people are not criminalized

So to answer your Q no if I had the choice and safety I would live as girl since day one

Rose I am sorry to hear you live in a place where visibly transitioning isn't safe.  I wish I could do more than say societies change over time, although society doesn't always change fast enough or the direction we want. 

I believe the goal is finding what will unlock and sustain each person living as their true selves.  If an individual can be happy living in their birth gender with or without HRT, I think that's awesome.   If that person's permanent destination is nonbinary that's also cool, and correlates to creativity and true independence.

I can't do that - I am the opposite, and tried heading into MTF without hormones.  As I am about to start HRT I am seriously considering going full time the day I start HRT. 

after 4 years of HRT and dressing  according to gender I'm just getting to use to it

For me social dysphoria is worse than physical dysphoria.

Also, I lived in the closet as a gay male for the first 36 years of my life and I gave up on the closet then and for good come what may.

Closeted here and on hrt for 2.75 years.  It's totally doable. I reckon I can keep this up for maybe another year before boymode is no longer sustainable.

Quote from: rose on July 01, 2017, 11:38:09 AM
My only hope to live as my true self as woman is to be in place where trans people are not criminalized

My heart goes out to you. I cannot imagine how hard it must be to feel trapped in your own society, and your body. I wish all countries had protecting laws for trans people and you had not to face these extreme difficulties. Compared to what you report, my concerns feel like nothing. I really do hope you are able to find peace and happiness.

To answer the topic, it's a Big Fat No. I wouldn't. Only if I really had no choice, like some people here don't, unfortunately. What would be the whole point? Being trapped forever and having to hide your body from other? Not being able to form intimate relationships? No, thanks. I have had enough of that for 18 years. I wouldn't trade it for anything.

No.  I'm very binary female.  I'd rather not do HRT and transition socially than do HRT and not transition.  If I HAD to be a guy in life, I'd rather not have boobs and less strength.

Yes
If there was an estrogen pill or shot or patch, that only produced mental changes, but zero physical changes I would be on it right now. I love being male physically.

I chose no.......Not simply for the fact that I don't think the HRT would fully fix my dysphoria, (I've always wanted a penis), but because of the following reasons:

1) Even though testosterone will shrink breast tissue, and chest exercise will help to decrease further, you'll always have a little...Binding is a pain, and honestly even with a good binder it could probably cause back, lung, or rib problems later down the road.....
Plus you'd never get to go shirtless, swimming or otherwise. You can't exercise or swim in binders. (Well...you're not supposed to at least), and if you got into a committed relationship with a Cis-genders, heterosexual female, even if you were honest with her about being an FTM, what little breast you have would probably be a turn off and could hinder your relationship physically and sexually.

2) Even through the growing of facial hair, excess body hair, deepening of voice and etc occurs, and that may be enough for some people, I don't like the idea personally of only doing things half-way....I'm committed, although it will take some time. I fully indent to have a top surgery and either a metodioplasty or phalloplasty.

3) Although it is not scientifically PROVEN, it is believed that introducing testosterone into the female body can cause cancer of the cervix, and it is recommended that after a specific amount of time on HRT for FTM's a full hysterectomy is done to prevent this from happening. While I know that internal organs probably do not count compared to the sex organs, I do considering this kind of surgery to be a part of transitioning.

This is just my personal view...I don't speak for all FTM's, of course.

I'm not really sure this would be possible for most FTMs, would it? After only a little over a year and a half on T, if I put on a dress, I'd look like a bulky *** man in a dress.

And no, definitely not, even if it were possible for me personally. Anyone that can do so deserves a serious hat tip, though. The mere thought of someone referring to me as 'ma'am' ever again blinds me with rage.

Quote from: Stone Magnum on July 03, 2017, 01:37:50 AM
The mere thought of someone referring to me as 'ma'am' ever again blinds me with rage.

That's pretty strong. Perhaps you should register with your state's DoR.

All the best,
--AshleyP

I thought long and hard about this when I first got low dose HRT. I almost felt I could just keep living the same life because it would be easier for everyone around me and that the low dose HRT made me feel better mentally. BUT I know I would never find happiness in myself living like that. The low dose took away a lot of the noise level anxiety but it gave me a small glimpse of what mental happiness might feel like. For me to feel happy in my own being meant I needed to be free, no longer under the constraints of a male character played for the convienence of others. I would need to be true to my inner being to find it. Low dose just gave me the insight to find what was definitely right for me.

Living as my true female self is my only choice.

Quote from: AshleyP on July 03, 2017, 02:15:05 AM
Perhaps you should register with your state's DoR.

Department of Revenue?

I absolutely wouldn't! I lived half/half for a year and a half, then finally came out at work last November. Since then, I've only ever presented/dressed as my female self. I only started HRT in April. So, since I wanted to and had to live as only myself even before HRT, there's even less than 0% of a chance now that I'm feeling and looking a little different a couple months into hormones.

Quote from: Erika_Courtney on July 02, 2017, 11:47:51 PM
Yes
If there was an estrogen pill or shot or patch, that only produced mental changes, but zero physical changes I would be on it right now. I love being male physically.

Wow I never heard that from a transgender woman.

I voted for no but there is a chance that I'll have to do this for a while. After some time on HRT it will be simply impossible for me to not be myself. Even now, before HRT and at the end of hair removal I push the boundaries of my male presentation towards the feminine range to feel a little better and I experience a lot of male fails and people questioning my gender almost every day. It would tear me apart from the inside to continue pretending to be a man while even my body is starting to match how I feel.

Quote from: Wild Flower on July 03, 2017, 12:06:09 PM
Wow I never heard that from a transgender woman.

Thank you, you made my week.

Hi I am Erika, the only thing I know for sure is that I am not a cis male. I am probably somewhere around non binary and transgender woman. I always felt like a girl in my head, maybe if I was mentally female I would feel different. I don't mind some female body characteristics, but I know I would miss my male body. I am also exploring myself through therapy, who knows what I have just repressed over the years.