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Started by coldHeart, July 11, 2017, 05:47:44 PM

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coldHeart

Well I should to to the ladies on here more often, went to my first LBGT meeting to met all the other different Pep's my escort was a lovely young lesbian who I tried her best to farm my nerves, firstly what do I wear! I had a brain wave I,ve had enough of hiding in the shadows so right I,m going full female ( remember I don't even go out presenting as a male) so when the time came stuck on a pair of long boots legging little black mini & a newly brought fluffy black jumper then my make cloths on top, by the the time my lift had arrived I was sweating buckets due to all the clothing & nerves.
Arrived at the meeting no were to park " you don't mind walking a little" said my taxi right I thought its do or die so off came the nasty male clothes & off down through a busy town I walked as Sara & not a strange look.
Every one at the meeting was amazing & one or two funny stories, was told I was passable (still don't believe that) got back home , my god people in the street! But gt out of the car & just walk to my house still in the girlie look in fact a full 24 hours.
Stepped in side & the ex wife was stood there looking at me (still live in same house😞) "you went outside looking like that!" Came a remark " yes I did why got a problem " I replied.
So in the last 24 hours I've gone from recluse to in the open SARA my confidence has for the moment hit the roof, tomorrow I think I will start to sort out my male clothing ready for the charity ships.
Sara.
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Dena

What a change over about three weeks ago. I am glad you are on your way and there will be no stopping you now.
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KathyLauren

Way to go, Sara!  What a success!
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Dan

Whoa! Awesome! It's amazing what can happen when we let go of fear controlling us.

You are inspirational  8)

Now sit back and reflect on all the good feelings this came with. Ingrain them into your memory.  You just made a huge deposit in your "feel fantastic" bank account.  Whenever you starting feeling down again ( it will happen) you can make a withdrawal and give yourself a 'feel fantastic' boost.

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AlyssaJ

Wow good for you girl.  Sadly there will always be those who put us down because they can't stand to see us happy as our authentic selves (spouses and ex-spouses are particularly good at that).  Glad you stood your ground, held your head high and didn't let her detract from your enjoyment of your day.
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Cheaney

Way to go Sara! Like Alyssa said, glad you didn't let the ex get you down. She sounds like a peach. Anyways, so happy for you girl!
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HappyMoni

Wow what a nice post to come back to after two weeks away. I am way happy for you. You look great. Don't hide no more, okay?
Moni
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josie76

Oh my goodness, reading your post made me smile. I'm so happy for you. Facing those fears is the worst. I have to say, you handled your ex's comments perfectly. Don't let her get to you. You are blossoming and she may not like to see that happiness in you. Keep going!
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kyla10

Wow, I am jealous.  Kudos, you are a stronger woman than I am!  Way to go!
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tgirlamg

Dear Sara!!!! ...

You have no idea how happy I am to see your post!!!... Congrats on holding on through the dark days and nights... Congrats on finding the courage and hope within yourself to move forward...Congrats on standing this day at the beginning of a life that will finally be your own...

Onward you go brave sister!!!!

Hugs and Much Love!!!

Ashley Marie :)
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

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coldHeart

A few of you girls kept trying to get me to hold on jut a little bit longer I'm so glad I did.
Now I just need to keep building up my confidence, it was so surreal Walking down a busy street as me & if any one did turn & look I never see any body & I did not care.
Thanks you girls who kept kicking my butt, I will keep you all post on the next outing.
Sara
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elkie-t

Quote from: coldHeart on July 12, 2017, 06:22:08 AM
A few of you girls kept trying to get me to hold on jut a little bit longer I'm so glad I did.
Now I just need to keep building up my confidence, it was so surreal Walking down a busy street as me & if any one did turn & look I never see any body & I did not care.
Thanks you girls who kept kicking my butt, I will keep you all post on the next outing.
Sara
What if someone would turn and look? Would you hide back in your cave, or would you be bold and proud and say - I have as much rights to be me as you have rights to be you, or more?
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tgirlamg

Quote from: coldHeart on July 12, 2017, 06:22:08 AM
A few of you girls kept trying to get me to hold on jut a little bit longer I'm so glad I did.
Now I just need to keep building up my confidence, it was so surreal Walking down a busy street as me & if any one did turn & look I never see any body & I did not care.
Thanks you girls who kept kicking my butt, I will keep you all post on the next outing.
Sara

I'm looking forward to every bit you want to share with us as your new life unfolds and blossoms!!! Amazing things lay ahead my dear sister!!! Enjoy every moment!!!


Hugs and Love!!!

Ashley :)
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

Ashley's Corner: https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247549.0.html 🌻
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Randy1980

That's is so awesome! I can't wait to experience that.. oh how I would love to go out as my true self and pass..I think it would be the most amazing feeling I could ever have.. I have a way to go before I can even attempt that but I will get there one step at a time
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davina61

Just turned on the laptop, painted my nails plum!!! and what do I find---- go girl go. Just what I have found no one cares apart from wife and kids . So what , put up or shut up. Wish I could find a lgbt by me I would so be down there in my best frock and make up. Now maybe  we can se a selfie ?
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Sarah_P

Yes!! You rock Sara! I knew you could do it! It feels so liberating to go out as our true selves, doesn't it? I don't get the opportunity to do so all that often (I live in a pretty dangerous town for lgbtq people), but it always feels fantastic when I do.
Congratulations!!!

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Charlotte F

Nice one Sara!  An amazing step forward and how fantastic to see such a change from a couple of weeks ago
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Shy

Wonderful news Sara :) I'm so glad you managed to get to where you needed to be and found your people. As for walking through the town as yourself, well that's just awesome news. :icon_rockon:

Peace an love and all that good stuff,

Sadie
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coldHeart

I was really so worry on the journey to the meeting that perhaps it was a mistake but when we pulled up I thought its now or never, if some one had made a remark I was so buzzing at the time I would of laugh it off it was such a high just walking do the high street, I suppose my petite size helps me a lot.
To day was a fashion let down as I had lots to do on my motor bike's so no heels.
But had a strange evening talking to my ex wife, she asked " did you wear any make up yesterday!" I thought this odd at first  as we both walked into one another when I got home any way I replied "no why!" Waiting for some sarky  remark back " If your are going to go out without no make up on a least let me help you & show you for best results " I almost felt my knees go was she really offering to help me out, then going a step further " you need to to a fashion walk in front of me so I can tell you if the clothes you are wearing suits you" mmmm what is she up too or is she slowly coming round!
Any way its been too much excitement for one girl so I now need to lye down in a dark room for a day or two.
But it goes to prove if some one as weak as me can do it so can you.
Sara x
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elkie-t

Wow, you aren't her sex partner any more, but she remains your friend. That's wonderful!

And many girls feel going with no makeup is to a degree similar to going naked. In fact, some cultures at some point in time demanded women to wear makeup when out in public


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