Sara!!!

Sounds like some unexpected pieces of the puzzle are falling into place nicely!!!... Must be all the positive energy you are radiating sister!!!... I had an uncanny amount of that in my life as well... As soon as I decided to transition everything just started falling into place...let this serve as reassurance you are moving in the right direction and all will be well

Hugs!

Ashley

Quote from: coldHeart on July 12, 2017, 05:56:30 PM
I was really so worry on the journey to the meeting that perhaps it was a mistake but when we pulled up I thought its now or never, if some one had made a remark I was so buzzing at the time I would of laugh it off it was such a high just walking do the high street, I suppose my petite size helps me a lot.
To day was a fashion let down as I had lots to do on my motor bike's so no heels.
But had a strange evening talking to my ex wife, she asked " did you wear any make up yesterday!" I thought this odd at first  as we both walked into one another when I got home any way I replied "no why!" Waiting for some sarky  remark back " If your are going to go out without no make up on a least let me help you & show you for best results " I almost felt my knees go was she really offering to help me out, then going a step further " you need to to a fashion walk in front of me so I can tell you if the clothes you are wearing suits you" mmmm what is she up too or is she slowly coming round!
Any way its been too much excitement for one girl so I now need to lye down in a dark room for a day or two.
But it goes to prove if some one as weak as me can do it so can you.
Sara x

Sara,
   I want to fuss at you first. Don't you ever scare us like that again young lady. We were so worried.

   Now I can say how wonderful it is to see how far you have come. I love it. Stay positive Girl and no one will keep you down. It does sound like she is coming around some. Being friends is at least a good start. Give her time, she may be evolving.
Moni

So working on your Mcycle , watching Café Racer at the moment. Having built 4 drag bikes for my youngest I find it very interesting. What bike do you have?

A Yamaha & KTM Davina probably is I find wearing a helmet too long play's hell with you hair.
Sara

Congratulations Sara, way to go. Keep it up. I am very happy for you.

OMG Sara I haven't read all this thread but I am soooo glad you went to that meeting and that it sounds like it turned out so well for you. Now I have to read the rest of it.

  Hugs,
    Laurie

Wish I had that hair problem, Youngest has a R1 that I helped to get roadworthy. Got any more adventures planed?

Sara!  I just spotted this and I am so damn proud of you.  YES!!! 

I'm really happy for you, Sara!  You've come a long way!

Didn't I say it the last week seems like a dream well I,ve just woken up! I have made a big mistake

Quote from: coldHeart on July 15, 2017, 05:39:26 PM
Didn't I say it the last week seems like a dream well I,ve just woken up! I have made a big mistake

No you haven't Sara!!!! ... Transforming a life can be an overwhelming and scary process at times but all obstacles and fears can be handled!!! All of us here are hungry to help you get to where you want to be... Please stay with us and fight for what you need!!! We will stand beside you the whole way  ... Read the PM reply I sent you and PLEASE do NOT delete your account here!!!! Don't turn your back on what is possible with help from your sisters!!!!

Hugs and Love!!!

Ashley 🌻

Quote from: coldHeart on July 15, 2017, 05:39:26 PM
Didn't I say it the last week seems like a dream well I,ve just woken up! I have made a big mistake

Hi Sara,

What the heck are you talking about? Made a mistake? No my dear, you going out to that meeting and the good posts you have made after are by no means a mistake. You proved you can do it and feel great about doing it. Don't you dare back off now. There is only one way to go from here now that you have had a taste of it and that my dear friend is forward.  You let your setback have too much sway of you, when you should let those go and focus on the dreams.
  Look at what I just did. I left home in search of myself and a month later of visiting with others like me and living as a woman I found myself and Laurie has come home. This trip has done wonders to help me accept myself. So much I may even have started full time. At least that is what I am going to be trying. That my dear Sara is not who left here a month ago.
  Our world changes with what we do. We all struggle to find and accept who we are in the beginning. Some of us are not who we thought we were but are more and better than we can imagine. Our trials and challenges cause us to grow, to investigate and to discover who we are. It isn't an easy road for any of us. But it is a road we need to take so we can evolve into who we really are. And you my dear are Sara. You are meant to be Sara and if you don't give up you will be Sara. Come on sister, fight for it, fight for your dreams. We can help you but only if you are here for us and let us know what you struggle with. You can do it girl. I know you can because I am doing it myself. My struggles may not seem as dire as yours are but they are still struggles. Come fight them with me and all the others that struggle. That's what we are here in these forums for, to get help and to help others with whatever struggles we have.

  Loves ya Sara.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Quote from: coldHeart on July 15, 2017, 05:39:26 PM
Didn't I say it the last week seems like a dream well I,ve just woken up! I have made a big mistake

Sara,
   I am going to join in the love coming your way. I sent you a PM as well. Please stay with us and talk to at least one of us. We care about you and want the  best for you.
Love,
Moni

Sara!  I just spotted this and...  NO!!! 

Please - you are precious, we all want you to experience more of the happiness you found being out and about as yourself Sara.  It isn't always easy and you might feel an initial hesitation or second thought.  Close your eyes and think of how you felt boldly walking to that meeting, you literally owned it.  You deserve to feel good about yourself, because you are.

Sara!! You CAN do this! You KNOW you can do this! Just remember how good it felt to be the real you!
Yes, this is hard! This is the hardest thing any of us have ever done in our lives, so we have to be strong. You're stronger than you think you are. You proved that yourself by going to that meeting!

We're all here for you, girl! Stay strong!

Sorry Ladies/guys but I am just totally broken & lost!

Sara I wish I was just down the street and could drive or walk over.  You need a hug, and understanding. 

The young lady who was at that milestone meeting with you - perhaps you can talk to her?  She might be very confident but quite possibly faced similar struggles in her past. 

You can call any time, I will PM my phone.  If important (and you are), don't worry what time it is where I am. 

You might feel lost right now but you are not lost.  You are here.

Quote from: coldHeart on July 16, 2017, 10:51:22 AM
Sorry Ladies/guys but I am just totally broken & lost!

My Dear Sister Sara,

I am going to answer some of the things in your PM here so that all of us here that care deeply to see you through this period can offer loving viewpoint from their own experience...

The most important thing you said to me were the closing words... " I want to carry on "....This is the stuff of success... The desire to move forward because we sense that better things lay ahead...

Yes... I am happy in a very real sense in my life as most of us here living our authentic lives are... All of us fought hard to get to the point we are at... We fought the demons you find yourself facing right now and we therefore know that they can be defeated ... That's what we want to help you do so you can join us on the other side of the darkness!!!!... How many of us felt passable going into this?... Likely none of us or next to none... Most of us, including me, still don't feel passable much of the time or at all....This doesn't stop us from being happy... In truth, it is a small part of what this is all about...

This is a journey of 1000 steps but, all we have to deal with right now are a few baby steps... The rest will come in time...  You are overloaded with worry right now and need to clear your mind... Let's set this stuff aside for a minute and get some much needed sleep... Lack of sleep makes everything seem overwhelming....we will then take a few deep breaths and plot a course forward together....

Everyone here wants to see you through to success and we will stand by you!!!... Let's get you to your next support group!... Let's get you in touch with some of the members of the group outside the meetings so you have local support... Let's make moves towards HRT because it will probably do wonders for you and give you peace... If money is the obstacle to HRT then let's find a way around that!... Let's start you a Go Fund Me account or something to get things rolling!...

Small steps in the right direction will get get you far sister... Let's point you in the right direction and start planning the first small steps...no need to worry about the others yet... Just know that we will be walking there beside you!!!

Hugs and Love,

Ashley ❤️🌻