I really don't know what to think. I would hope it is within the range of how people heal. I do the trip to New Hope tomorrow. I have a number of questions. I hope she removes the nasty stuff. The white stuff seems to disintegrate slightly but really does hang on. I am getting no exercise because of swelling. Also, I lost probably ten pounds during the procedure. It is all back. This is a serious question, but it seems that either my butt checks are still swollen or, with the change in hormones, at least some of that weight has gone to my behind. It feels soft, not painful, unlike being swollen, but bigger than before. It would be nice to gain some there.
Mood wise I think I am okay. It is hard not to be active like usual. I stood for ten minutes doing dishes yesterday and had to go lay down because it ached so bad. I did drive my partner to the airport, but it was about my limit.
New stuff! I can't touch the good parts yet, but I am enjoying touching the inner thigh area. I just am taking notice of it. I know the central focus is gone (penis) so the area of sensitivity I pay attention to is spreading out more. The change in focus is something I may never have done without the surgery. It is subtle and yet kind of game changing. It is the start of a whole other way of experiencing my body, I think. Does that make sense?
Moni