Quote from: JoanneB on August 05, 2017, 06:00:00 PM
I think it is relatively easy to get a chorus of all us old dinosaurs (>30?) here on Susan's to say WTF Too old? Too late?

It is never too late to do anything as long as you are still waking up on the sunny side of the grass

As to you particular situation, just because you have GD does not mean you NEED to do a full transition. It simply means you are somewhere on the spectrum between cis-female and cis-male. It's a VERY Big middle ground with lots of options and ways to Manage the GD beyond the futile attempts to beat it down. Take it from me, a 50 year loser of that battle, yet still living and presenting full time as male and far happier for taking on the Trans-Beast, for real

Thank you for saying what you said. It is very encouraging.

Quote from: D on July 27, 2017, 10:12:29 AM
i just want to get rid of wanting to be a girl....

Welcome to the club 

You can "Quiet the noise". It may, in time, even pass. Odds are it will resurface in times of stress.

What you can try to rid yourself of is thinking that I am either A or B. THAT will drive you crazy. Being trans means you are "Somewhere" on the spectrum between cis-female and cis-male. It's an awfully big universe to reside in full of much more then simple B&W choices

Quote from: JoanneB on August 05, 2017, 07:06:22 PM
What you can try to rid yourself of is thinking that I am either A or B. THAT will drive you crazy. Being trans means you are "Somewhere" on the spectrum between cis-female and cis-male. It's an awfully big universe to reside in full of much more then simple B&W choices

This is the biggest problem I personally have. I really appreciate your thoughtful comments, for someone like myself who is just starting to try deal with ->-bleeped-<- it is helpful to have people share realistic perspectives.

Someone on the forum mentioned having GCS without prior feminization or plans to transition socially. I think it might be a better route than turning an eunuch (having an orchie)? You would still need to take some hormones after the surgery, either T or E, but if you choose to go with E it can be low dose with slower development (hopefully unnoticeable by your colleagues, or you could shrug it off with 'yeah, hormone problems, T deficiency, looks like I'm getting older').


Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

There's many of us that feel this way, including me.

I don't even tho why I browse this forum anymore to be honest, I guess it keeps the dream alive haha. 

My reasons are somewhat similar to yours because I feel manly when I look in the mirror and think, hey I am a man not female, I do have a pretty 'petite' frame but I am 6ft tall which sucks and just makes me think being called transphobic slurs in public, I already have anxiety and would never be able to deal with that.

I did save up some money to maybe consider going private in the UK for HRT since the UK NHS has a huge waiting list and even started putting away money for FFS and maybe Voice Surgery and I still chuckle at that thought because it was my way of "yeah I ain't in denial, I am just saving up to start my transition!" 

Only thing I did do was get Finasteride to stop male pattern baldness and grew (still growing) my hair out but eh, it still sucks anyway.

If I could turn back time and be born female I would JUMP at the chance and it sucks I lost the gender lottery at birth but w/e, can't do nothing about it now.

Sorry for the somewhat ramble, needed to get off my chest as I am pretty down in the dumps at the moment haha.

Hope we both can find peace with whatever we decide to do D.

Quote from: D on July 27, 2017, 10:12:29 AM
i just want to get rid of wanting to be a girl....

Exactly how I'm feeling right now...

Quote from: JoanneB on August 05, 2017, 07:06:22 PM
Welcome to the club 

You can "Quiet the noise". It may, in time, even pass. Odds are it will resurface in times of stress.

What you can try to rid yourself of is thinking that I am either A or B. THAT will drive you crazy. Being trans means you are "Somewhere" on the spectrum between cis-female and cis-male. It's an awfully big universe to reside in full of much more then simple B&W choices

This is true, and I'm trying to work on that. I'm trying to see where I am in the spectrum but it's hard to get rid of the binary images.