Transition has officially taken the first thing from me, my relationship. I came out to my ex boyfriend 4 months ago and back then he said he would support me through my transition and that my happiness was the most important thing. Long story short, after having a lot of ups and downs in the past few months, we had a big fight last Sunday (about something unrelated to transition) which culminated in our breakup. He told me he was already at peace with ending the relationship and that he realized he couldn't do what he said he would, there was no way he could be with me as a woman.
For him it all went downhill last week when he saw a picture of us from 2 years ago, and he realized I looked so different already even if I still look like a man. He said he started crying and felt in mourning the entire week, I was away on a business trip unaware of all of this and when I got back on Saturday, he told me he was sad and we had a big conversation about it. But we didn't end things, it was until the fight on Sunday that I realized it was gone for good. I had already felt a distance between us (coming from him) and he always denied it but I realized I was right even if he wasn't aware that he was acting different.
Well, needless to say I feel very sad and I miss him. What makes me sadder is that I feel I'm in this middle point where I don't want to get involved with any other guy because they will be attracted to my male appearance. And of course I can't be with a straight man cuz I don't look like a woman yet. I'll get through this by myself.
Just wanted to vent, cheers everyone!
