Hi hon,
Here am I nearing 5 decades myself, I've buried, repressed, denied myself through most of it, it's difficult, and I've only disclosed who I am here, to one friend and my therapist. The digital voices here give me comfort, and support - here I can be, even if I am not in the physical world.
There are two key threads to read one about coming out to your partner, and the other titled 'before you decide to leave'.
You are more than welcome here - and no, you're not making life harder for anyone, take a break, read threads as a guest, keep your account, so that you can ask questions as you need.
(Hugs)
Rowan
