Hey Little Sister!...
Panic is unessesary baggage on this journey! You can leave it behind!!!..., You are gorgeous and all will be well

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Too old to make your life work?...Ha!!!... I could be your grandma and I am happier than I have ever been!!!... You are doing all this stuff at the right time... When you were ready and realized that more conventional paths in life would not bring you what you truly need... A life that is truly your own... A life that reflects the truth of who you are at your core...
Many of us start this journey envisioning a future in which we will "pass" 100% of the time to 100% of the people but, find along the way that true happiness does not require we meet that standard... It is a fine goal to have but, don't let hitting it become a source of misery.. Misery is also baggage you won't need with you to weigh you down... Let joyous possibilities and unexpected discoveries take it's place instead...All will be well 😀!!!
You have pointed your life in the right direction Courtney... Every step forward will bring you closer to where you want to be!!! Don't focus solely on the destination though ... The whole ride is amazing and every moment holds lessons and value. Keep the little light of hope alive in your heart and keep moving forward... Your life is going to blossom!!!
Our lives truly are what we make them to be... Go make yours amazing!!!!
Onward we go brave girl
Ashley 😀
PS... Some poetry for your journey forward from Walt Whitman's Song of the Open Road... I like the line ..."Gently, but with undeniable will" and aspire to live each day in that way...
From this hour I ordain myself loos'd of limits and imaginary lines,
Going where I list, my own master total and absolute,
Listening to others, considering well what they say,
Pausing, searching, receiving, contemplating,
Gently,but with undeniable will, divesting myself of the holds that would hold me.
I inhale great draughts of space,
The east and the west are mine, and the north and the south are mine.
I am larger, better than I thought,
I did not know I held so much goodness.
All seems beautiful to me,
I can repeat over to men and women You have done such good to me I would do the same to you,
I will recruit for myself and you as I go,
I will scatter myself among men and women as I go,
I will toss a new gladness and roughness among them,
Whoever denies me it shall not trouble me,
Whoever accepts me he or she shall be blessed and shall bless me.