Hi girls and boys 🙋♀️ We all here need to experience the right of passage called "hello, I'm new here"! I missed that boat and need to get on board and as the header implies this is all about Jessica.
I'm a 61 yo trans-woman in the SF Bay Area. Like many here, I recognized the thought of being a girl in my teens. I had heard about Christine Jorgensen and it sent a shiver of fear down my spine, because I felt wow, cool, you can do that? I wasn't sure about if I was gay or what....no resources really. I felt I was attracted to both genders. But I buried the thought of being with men. Since I was sexually attracted to women also, l realized that finding love there was well worth it. Met a woman that was a bit younger, naive and a bit of a tomboy. We fell in love and raised 2 sons that are fine adults now.
I had a career in the construction field for 34 years, solidly working as a working foreman. I enjoyed the challenge on many levels creating (in my mind) artwork in structure. I was the one they went to when they didn't know how to do it. I am proud of my team that helped me achieve my goals, no one can succeed fully on their own. After injuring myself (off site) I retired to a new job of grandpa. There is no better job than being a grandparent.
From the beginning to now I have experimented with aspects of myself in various ways. My wife knew I was attracted to men from the beginning and after a decade or so, I asked her if I could check out those feelings. She allowed it as long as I was safe and it didn't intrude on our time together. I enjoyed it only as the "submissive" partner, but it didn't feel right. The feeling that I should be a woman while having sex with men arose and it became the fantasy when with them. That led me to examine my gender issues closer. I feel that I have a woman's mind in a mans body and a mans body with a woman's mind. I feel both emotions. Gender fluid, and varies along the scale. My thought on the matter is that everyone is somewhere on the scale between feminine and masculine and that any person is as individual as the next, no one the same.
In my decision to embrace my feminine side, I weighed out my options. I had talked to my wife about feeling like I wouldn't mind being a woman. She has agreed that I should start hrt to see if it was right for me. So far we both have seen positive effects and I feel good just having the chance to feel more like who I am. I haven't had very much dysphoria through the years. I've had a good, happy life in my male mode. So if I never can pass as a woman (but feeling that I am a woman in my mind) I will still be content. I hope some day to be able to pass 100% though, that's when srs will be the order of the day.
Big hugs, Jessica 💁♀️
