Hello everyone,
I signed up here a few months ago while I was exploring whether or not I was transgender. I started seeing a gender therapist in September 2017 and finished my sessions in November. I learned a lot here and the various conversations gave me a lot of insight into who I wanted to be.
I came to the eventual conclusion that I am not transgender, or not exactly. I think I would be fine as a woman, that I would even enjoy it and that it would not conflict with who I am as a person. However, I also realized that even if I transitioned fully, or even if I magically had my body become 100% female, I still wouldn't truly consider myself female due to who I am and my life experience growing up male. This took a lot of thought, conversations with friends and my therapist, and I went back and forth for months before settling here, but I think I'm content with this conclusion. I really did not want to transition due to the costs and medical elements, and while I know being trans does not mean one has to transition this realization made me realize that being female was not as important to me as i once thought it was.
I am now exploring myself as a man with feminine interests. I am trying to express the feminine elements of my personality more and to just let my genuine self out in public. I still cross dress at times and I had a wonderful time cosplaying Marceline the Vampire Queen from the cartoon Adventure Time this past Halloween. It has felt right for me to embrace both sides of who I am, and I hope eventually to be totally comfortable with it.
Good luck to everyone still struggling, and thanks to all who supported me when I first signed up!
