It's been several years since I've been here, so I figured I'd re-introduce myself.

My name is Caroline, or Carly, or - from a legal standpoint - Bryce. I'm 23 and, honestly, still stuck in the questioning stage after at least 7 or 8 years since I first began to feel that something wasn't right. For the sake of clarity, here's where I stand:
I'm certain that I don't fit in with men at all. I'm friends with some, but I can never be "one of the guys." I do like some masculine things, of course, (mainly cars, technology, and building stuff) but that's the extent of it. I'm also certain that I feel uncomfortable with my facial and body hair. I despise shaving, but I also can't stand having a beard. I know that, at the very least, even if I never transition, I will probably get a LOT of laser hair removal in the future.
I'm UNcertain, however, about my body as a whole. I don't really hate my penis. Sometimes I do wish I could experience sexual pleasure through penetration instead, but then I just don't know. Really, the issue I have is that I'm not sure HOW to know what I feel like. I don't really feel uncomfortable using the men's room or anything, but that's largely because I'm apathetic of most things. I know that, if and when I do transition, I'm still just going to wear jeans and t-shirts. I'm very androgynous, and that only makes it more difficult to find myself.

I also, interestingly, have a longer index finger than ring finger and my hair spirals counterclockwise; those both mean I was exposed to more estrogen as a fetus than testosterone. I dunno if that means anything, but it's very uncommon for men to have both.

So yeah. Long story short, I'm here to hopefully learn how to better understand myself and what I want or need to be.

Welcome back to Susan's Place. Something new has been added while you were gone - - Me. I don't know how far you have come as you haven't been around here for a while but there are two links you should look at other than the standard greeting links. The first is our WIKI where you might be able to match your feelings with a name. The second link is "the transition channel" which is really helpful for those exploring their feelings. Feel free to ask any questions you might have and we will do our best to answer them.

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Hi there Carly! I'm Nina. Not wrong with not being sure. The best way to figure things out is through gender expression. See what things that girls typically like and try them out. You'll never know if you don't try. But being androgynous is also good. It's not always easy to figure out who you are, but you should never stop trying to find out.

Hi Carly 

Welcome back to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here again, join on in the fun

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V M

Hiya Carly!

Thanks for the warm welcome, everyone!