I don't know why you ordered, but hopefully you'll soon be able to shop in person. It's quite a feeling to be in the change room, trying on things, with a clerk assisting with your choices. Years ago, I was terrified anyone would find out what I wanted to wear, but I worked up the courage to go into a store and buy some pantyhose, without pretending they were for someone else. Since then I've bought everything openly, shoes, bras, dresses and more. On some occasions, I've even had female friends with me. It's quite a feeling.