I don't know how to use any of these things, but I guess I'm supposed to introduce myself 
My name is Patricia, I am 16 years old. My pronouns are he him and I am androgyne. It took me forever to even try to find a single word to describe how I am, and hard enough to even describe it without shame. but I am simultaneously male and female, both but also neutral and I really just kinda want support because I just feel like I don't have enough. And I know that if my mom knew I was using this website that she'd be reaaaaally mad at me, but I just need support, thanks guys.

Hi Patricia!

A mod should be along shortly for a welcome spiel.

Hi Patricia, welcome to Susan's!  I'm Jessica Marie!  There are forums that talk about being gender fluid here that may help you with your questions.  You have taken a good step by reaching out for help.
I see your new here, so I'll post some links that may help you get better acquainted with the site.
Ellie was correct kinda, I'm just a welcomer.

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Hi Patricia 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Hello Patricia, welcome to Susan's!

I am so glad you joined and introduced yourself.  Please do not feel shame if you find it difficult to find the exact words to describe yourself - I aim that burden at obsolete social standards that are changing and need to change.  In so many ways you are the future. 

I suppressed and stopped my exploration into who I am when I was younger than you are right now.  When I re-started many years later I discovered the answer was the same.  Take control of your future.  Make good long term decisions.

All the best,

Kendra