First of all i'd like to say that this seems like an excellent board with a lot of info and caring people. I've been lurking and reading a lot of posts. I'm going to open up with a lot of stuff that I normally would not admit to anyone, because I feel that there are friends here that might be able to help me understand what path i'm on.

To summarize, i'm a married mid-40s guy with a family. With that said, i've always known that I was "different". Up until just a few weeks ago I didn't really know what that meant. In fact, the wife and I have had many conversations about it (me initiating) but I still didn't understand.

Frankly, i've never been a "mans" man. Not interested in poker night, hunting, NFL, strip bars, adultery, or any of the other "manly" pursuits. I've often wondered "why?" (looking down at myself. Shouldn't I be like "them"? What is wrong with me?). And it has been painful not to have guy friends and guy activities. I felt excluded. Maybe I am gay?

And I happened across the COGIATI test. And took it.

The test revealed that I had a significant feminine component to my personality. The more I thought about it the more the pieces fell  into place. This made sense, and explained *so* many things in my history, life and outlook. A bright light came on.

My wife and I have always been really tight and now I think it has to do with my ability to connect with her because I see things her way. I would not trade that for anything. I am also tightly connected with my daughters, and in fact the thought of having to rear a son for me was quite scary when we were starting our family. I felt that I would not know what to do with him. Daughters seemed to present no issues (and haven't).

Still, there are plenty of other issues going on. I want to feminize to some degree (but not all the way to SRS). Been taking BO and have developed some boobies that I really like.  Not for sure why i'm doing this but finding that I really like it. So maybe i'm further into this than i'm willing to admit at this point. The wife doesn't know. And honestly I don't really understand the road that I seem to be on at the moment, and i'm pretty sure i'm lying to myself on a lot of things. This whole deal is quite new at the moment, and I have a lot to think about and think through.

Hopefully this board will be a resource as I work through and understand the new me

sounds like the game is afoot.

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Welcome.

My situation is not all that different from yours. I'm 38, been very happily married for the last 19 years, and I have 2 kids. My wife & I have discussed gender identity with our kids, but not mine specifically.

I, too, am starting to "feminize to some degree" and have no desire for SRS.

But, I have to ask. What do you mean by "taking BO?"

After reading the rules here I don't believe that I can answer that question 

However, a little internet research should yield the answer.

Quote from: riven_one on March 10, 2008, 03:24:47 PM
After reading the rules here I don't believe that I can answer that question 

However, a little internet research should yield the answer.

Understood. I'll start poking around.

Thanks, anyway.

Frankly, i've never been a "mans" man. Not interested in poker night, hunting, NFL, strip bars, adultery, or any of the other "manly" pursuits. I've often wondered "why?" (looking down at myself. Shouldn't I be like "them"? What is wrong with me?). And it has been painful not to have guy friends and guy activities. I felt excluded.

And I happened across the COGIATI test. And took it.


I feel the same way as you do and I've also taken the COGIATI test as well, and my results were more leaning towards being feminine than male as well. 

I'd love to experience the growth of boobies on my body. I have some development already, but nothing much. I may try something later . . .

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