Well I have always felt female inside, I tried to act like what I thought was male and I failed at that mostly cause head aches and heart aches. I always liked female things and wanted so much to do them but was never aloud to I would literally get beaten by my father. When I turned 16 and my dad was out of my life I started doing female things removed all my body hair, nail polish , eyeliner lipstick , pierced my ears and tongue had gel nail French manicure had my eyebrows done bought female underwear got a "tramp stamp" lol bought more female clothes had one night stand with guys while dressed as a female it took a while for me to realise and accept that I am not male I was pretending to be male for other people and I hated every thing about myself at the time. I felt like I was living a lie. I was never good at talking to guys about guy stuff but woman I could talk to about anything. I realy did not care to hear guys talk about girls that much as it made me feel uncomfortable but I was ok with girl talking about guys. Basically I was in denial myself. Which for me is wierd as everyone in my life says I am on the top of everything that comes into my life that I have to deal with. But an item that makes me feel girlly is eyeliner mostly sorry for the long paragraph