Hi, I am new to the site. I am 32 years old born male at birth. I came to the realization that i am transgender 11-2016. I feel like i am a male with a female brain. I do not have much body disphoria but I feel my life would be more complete (love-life, friends, social etc) if i was in a female body. I believe people can pick up that I am not authentically male.  At 19 I was convinced I was gay after denying it or fighting it so long. Growing up my school peers called me names like "->-bleeped-<-got" "sweetums" so I tried to macho up. My mom even put me in groups with other boys like boy scouts to help me develop of a man. It all makes sense now looking back which bring mixed emotions. I started seeing a gender therapist here in Jacksonville FL 4-19-17 so coming up on my one year anniversary. I dress up on the multiple weekends to run errands and do social testing at the advice of my therapist. That all went well. When i dress up I always get attention from men which i adore. I did my first social outing new years eve at a bar at the beach and was asked to dance by another guy. Don't know if he knew or not. I reached down after a brief bump and grind and felt he had a hard on. Then I thought he'd want to take it further so I told him it is after midnight and I am going home. I also went to my church one Sunday in full woman attire, however because of anxiety I left soon after service ended. I would like to start hormones at some point to enhance my look. I am on anti-depressants currenlty and hope the hormonons will balance me out and enable me to get off. It seems like mtf trans people battle depression a lot during their transition. I was on mines way before but maybe that i why I have to take them. I have my first consultation with a endocrinologist March 2. My therapist wants me to be ready before I start hormones because he said there is no turning back. My biggest fear is reaction from others at work and family when I go through with this. I believe a greater life awakes as a female. Hope this post is not too long. If any of you have any advice or words of wisdom for girl not full time please share. Thank for listening

Hi Ms. Bee 🙋‍♀️ I can relate to your lack of body dysphoria and having a female oriented brain.  For me it's a matter of needing hrt to balance my mind and feminize my body.  After 8 months I've only experienced one excursion in public, but felt very comfortable.  I was surprised on how most people payed no attention or seem to care.  Someday I will make a larger step when I'm farther along.

Smiles, Jessica

Hi Ms. Bee 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Hi Ms. Bee,

Welcome!   


Chrissy