E, I am sorry that you have been feeling down.
One thing I was surprised to discover about crying is that it reduces pain. My electrocutioner was working on the left side of my neck, which for some reason is more sensitive than the right. She had the machine cranked up to "kill" to deal with some stubborn hairs, and it was really hurting.
Finally, I could take it no longer, and I started to cry. When I did, the pain went down considerably. She ended the session when she saw the tears rolling down my face, but the change in pain response was something I hadn't expected.