Have you ever regularly worn makeup?
- Definitely, but mostly so before my transition, in my teens. Into my transition, I've worn it more on and off rather than regularly. I try to prevent getting like "addicted" to needing to wear it every day, that's why I don't do it regularly anymore. Thinking I'm ugly without makeup is a trap I really don't want to fall back into again.
If so, do you still wear it? Why?
- Yes, on occasion. I fill in my eyebrows when they've grown out lighter since last I dyed them, slap some powder on my face to look less shiny, sometimes put a bit of concealer on my acne if it's extra bad, contour my under my cheekbone and at temples to try to give a little edge/depth to my face or something. And sometimes I actually dot on some matte red eyeshadow on my lips which gives a super realistic slightly redder tint to them that stays all day.
Sometimes I wear more visible makeup though. Then I add brown/red-brown eyeshadow around my eyes to make it look like they're more "deep set" and kinda enhance my tiredness. I guess that's my "leave me alone I'm tired" -look.
I also dye my eyebrows and beard with hairdye which is kinda like makeup but more semi-permanent.
Also if I wear too much of it these days my eyes get sore and run constantly. Especially mascara and eyeliner does that. Doesn't matter how gentle/sensitive the products are.
Main reason is to make my face look "better" with a hint towards a goth look (like looking slightly more dead and risen from the grave) but naturally so. It's like a boost to make me feel a bit more handsome. I see it as enhancing the good looks I already have, so I don't think I look bad without it.
Do you feel less masculine wearing makeup? More masculine?
- Slightly less masculine, I'd say. But I think that's really just because society kinda hammered it into my head that "all makeup=feminine" even though I don't actually think so. Like I know that war paint most certainly isn't feminine, or adding a fake beard for that matter. But alas, I still feel like wearing any makeup makes me a tad more towards the femme end of the spectrum. I think that makeup often is a form of gender non-conformity for men in this day and age. But it doesn't really bother me all that much cause I don't mind having some femme elements to my generally masculine style. Like so what if I'm 90% masc or 100%? Not like anyone is purely 100% either masc or femme anyway.
Do you feel younger when you wear makeup? Older?
- A bit younger, I'd say. I don't think I look younger when I wear it though, or I hope so at least. Cause I'm not that old in actuality. The reason I think it makes me feel younger is because most people who wear makeup tend to be younger, and makeup is often regarded as either a "youth thing" or a "stage thing."
Yeah it can make you look older or younger, but I've acquired enough skill in that area over the years to know what to do to achieve the looks I want. I can make myself look anything from super feminine and young to more masculine and either young or older, as well as various different styles. I have no professional training/education, just self taught from youtube tutorials and lots of experimenting.
Do you feel that men that wear makeup are somehow "less masculine?' Why?
- Yeah a bit, but I definitely don't think it makes them less male. Like they're still 100% men. But it does highly depend on what kind of makeup as well, if I think they're less masculine. A bit of mascara and chapstick is very different from a full face of makeup in drag queen style with glitter and all. I think it is still kinda brave for men to wear makeup though, and I'd never berate another guy for doing so. Rather I have a lot respect for that, and I think gender non-conformity is generally a very good thing.