My testosterone went from 14 ng/dL to 26 ng/dL, but I actually enjoy having a little bit more testosterone in my system. I'm a lot more driven to find love now which fuels me with motivation to improve myself even further. I also feel and look very feminine, so there is indeed a sweet spot between too much and too little. Androgen blockers may not be a necessary thing for some of us whom fair well without them.

I haven't begun transitioning yet, but if I do transition I would want bottom surgery because I have always wanted to have a vagina.  Until I get one it feels like something is missing, along with a few other feminine qualities.

More and more looking like zero depth vaginoplasty will fit me fine. A new idea and I've discussed it with my wife is when I've stabilized my weight and the girls have settled at a size if they aren't to my liking I'd like to do augmentation. Maybe a G would be good for my build.

Zero depth vagina = pretty kitty...without the hassle of a litter box. 

Quote from: Devlyn on May 24, 2018, 05:43:49 PM
Zero depth vagina = pretty kitty...without the hassle of a litter box. 

Ha ha! 

Devlyn, that is too funny

My thoughts about what I would do verses what I wanted to do aligned the longer I was on HRT. I will be 5 years on HRT in 4 days.

At this point forward I am recovering from glottoplasty last week then some facial skin tightening and some vaso lypo and perhaps tummy skin tightening. I may do a 3rd round of hair follicle transplants but I am on the fence on that.

Quote from: Devlyn on May 24, 2018, 05:43:49 PM
Zero depth vagina = pretty kitty...without the hassle of a litter box. 

You as I have said before are just way to much fun.

It's really interesting(and sometimes funny!) to hear everyone's and yes also to Gaylo, people do often read entire threads, or at least I do.

I'm so early in my transition, that I think things are bound to change, heck Donna's opinion seems to have changed within this thread already anyway!

I think a big worry of mine is financial fears, and I am reasoning with myself that as long as I look and feel feminine, then I don't need to go any further. And for me, that means HRT, but no surgeries.  The only kind of laser I'm thinking I might get is on my chest.

I am fine with keeping my original genitalia(I really enjoy tucking, it's not uncomfortable at all!) but right now the idea of having a vagina doesn't seem appealing to me. That also used to be because I was like, "Oh, well I'm not going to use it for sex, so there's no reason for it." First of all, I honestly don't know if I would never use it for sex, and I now understand what the zero-depth ones means.  So, I guess only time will tell.

But definitely, HRT, I want to get on that coaster so bad that I'm standing on my tippy-toes!

Donna- I too don't have much of an interest in sex and haven't since my first marriage 40+ years ago. I am satisfied having only HRT as it is healing my mind. If I were 20 I would be looking into fixing everything and maybe find men attractive. Obviously a lifetime of others sexual mores dominating my ability to transition. I developed coping mechanisms that made me seem dudeish.  But Jo and I have been together 35 years and we enjoy the simpler things in life like snuggling in front of the fireplace and having a conversation. Or playing board games with the kids.

I love the fact that we are all free to be flexible in our final outcome. And I for one have had many stages of change of mind. As simple as not having an interest in dresses in December to being my favourite clothing item now.

Quote from: Eryn T on May 25, 2018, 01:51:44 AM
It's really interesting(and sometimes funny!) to hear everyone's and yes also to Gaylo, people do often read entire threads, or at least I do.

I'm so early in my transition, that I think things are bound to change, heck Donna's opinion seems to have changed within this thread already anyway!

I think a big worry of mine is financial fears, and I am reasoning with myself that as long as I look and feel feminine, then I don't need to go any further. And for me, that means HRT, but no surgeries.  The only kind of laser I'm thinking I might get is on my chest.

I am fine with keeping my original genitalia(I really enjoy tucking, it's not uncomfortable at all!) but right now the idea of having a vagina doesn't seem appealing to me. That also used to be because I was like, "Oh, well I'm not going to use it for sex, so there's no reason for it." First of all, I honestly don't know if I would never use it for sex, and I now understand what the zero-depth ones means.  So, I guess only time will tell.

But definitely, HRT, I want to get on that coaster so bad that I'm standing on my tippy-toes!

The HRT roller coaster has been an absolute thrill ride for me. I have never felt so good with life and myself. You should enjoy it immensely.

The journey has changed again for me. They have cancelled
My pre-op for the orchi on July 23. It's better news as it is now only 19 days away on June 14th.
HAPPY, HAAPY, HAPPY

Donna, good luck to you; June 14th will be here quickly.

Quote from: Karen_A on May 26, 2018, 09:54:28 AM
Your DNA is what it is and can't be changed... Unless you have significant physical indications of having an intersex condition, your DNA is almost certainly XY.

What would you do if you do have it tested and it turns out to be XY? What would you change? Same question if it was XX... Wouldn't you be doing the same things in either case?

All you can do is be the person you want to be as best you can and live your life that way.

I understand how validating it would be to find out one was XX with an intersex condition , but either way you have to deal with being born with a physical condition that does not match who you are, and you ARE dealing with it... and you need to learn to accept yourself either way as a legitimate female ... that does not come from DNA.

- Karen

I think some trans women feel that being intersexed would be proof to themselves and others that there is indeed a physical cause of their condition, since their DNA is part female.  So, this may or may not make it easier for an intersexed trans woman  to socially transition; however, most of the intersexed trans women I have seen look like they had a sufficient amount of testosterone in their system to fully masculinize their face and body, so they are really no better off transition wise than a trans woman with xy DNA.

Thanks Devlyn. Appreciate you stepping in. I take no offence that it went a little off the rails and I would just like to suggest taking things like this to PM. Thanks everyone for everything said so far.
I would rather not see this get shut down by the mods

It's okay to share different views on how we perceive reality, but perhaps reduce the intensity of it if it's making others feel uncomfortable. ^^ Carrying on the topic: I don't need a vaginoplasty to feel "woman", because I don't view myself as entirely woman. I fall somewhere in the middle mentally speaking. Girl ----- Me ----- Guy

That itself is not a full proof reason to not get bottom surgery, as I don't have to be fully kitty to enjoy the possible benefits of having a litter box. My biggest pet peeve is current technology doesn't entirely please my aesthetic mind. Couple that with the fact that most of the GCS performing surgeons in my area have terrible reputations and you get a big NO coming from my end. XD

I also love to poke holes just as much as I like my holes to be poked. Perhaps that's TMI? Lol. Whoops.

This is the great part of sharing respectfully our opinions. We can all learn from each other. No one is right and no one is wrong we all just do it our way and those way are always in flux. I am still torn and going back and forth now between a zero depth or a just going smooth. Think ken or Barbie doll.
I live female I think female I feel female I express female I dress female and I am female and what's in my pants is me no matter what it looks like as long as the first part is always the most important part to me.

I'm aiming to in order laser hair removal, dressing 24/7, - balls, + boobs, and then - shaft in that order. I am not intending on a vagina, and am undecided on the tracheal shave but it might be nice as I have a thin neck. Fingers and legs crossed!

 There's something so empowering being a chick with a tool.