Now that I have a few beers in me ( yay Sunday )...
I think now would be a good point in your life to start looking at other religions and gain exposure to them. Find what feels right for you.
It could be a different sect of Christianity, Judaism, Buddhism, a pagan flavor (I'm technically a lapsed Druid), or something else, or maybe nothing (atheism)
If your parents are not ok with you making your own spiritual choices you may have to do this in secret. However finding your spiritual center is part of finding your true self. I definitely encourage you to try to do so.
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