What fresh new heaven is this? 

My name is Amanda.  I'm 47 and eagerly awaiting my hormone readiness assessment in September. 

My first experience?  I was 5, there was a glass with a silhouette of a Playboy bunny in stockings, and a pair of my mother's stockings under the bathroom sink.  I locked the door, and have been hooked ever since! 

What a wonderful resource this forum has been for me; I am so grateful for everyone sharing their stories, they have had a profound effect on me.  What I didn't expect was to see so many here near my age who look so fabulous and whose stories are so inspiring.

xoxoxoxoxo
Amanda

@OhAmanda
Dear Amanda
I am glad that you have become a member of Susan's Place and that you have shared your posting with other members here on the Forums.
I am thinking that you may lots more questions and concerns, this is the right place for you to be to find out what others have done that may have been in your circumstances.
 
Be aware that there are a lot of members here that can identify with your situation..

Please allow me to warmly WELCOME you to Susan's Place. 
You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others  and to read about others similar trials, tribulations, and successes.
It is nice that you had signed up so you can share with others and involve yourself with some give and take with other like-minded members.
When frustrated or if you have successes you can share it here if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. ....

***It's a very good chance that you might find that you will make some new friends here. 

Please come in and continue to be involved at your own pace. 
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Hi Amanda 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Hi Amanda,
I am reminded of what happened when I was eight.  That was when my mother realised that I thought that girls had willies and when I finally realised that I was definitely physically a boy.

A few months later in 1964, a Playboy magazine appeared in the spare room with my toys.  For many years, I presumed that it had been left there by mistake but it occurs to me now that it was probably my parents' idea of sex education.  I didn't learn much from a 1964 edition but I did find it fascinating.

Thank you all for the warm welcome!  Very positive place