Now that I've been able to admit the truth to myself, I have a few new struggles to contend with. These definitely aren't bad, per se, but they could potentially cause a new type of anxiety. I also know that these are fairly common for anyone that has let the proverbial cat out of the bag.

I'm just expressing myself here, and am working through these as part of my counseling and personal growth in my transition. (Whatever that remains to be)

1) I am on an emotional roller coaster ride, and I haven't even started HRT. I have felt joy this week that I have never remember feeling before in my life. I have fear of what's to come, where my marriage and friendship with my wife will end up, how will my family life turn out when I finally reveal my truths. I have confidence that I haven't felt in a very long time. Yet, in the end, I feel comfort like I've never known, in what's to come.

2) My thoughts are overcome with my new found freedom of thought and emotion. I can't stop thinking about how it will feel to start HRT, going out to get a new wardrobe, imagining what work would be like if I transitioned there, and being able to live my life according to who I really am. A woman.

3) Becoming attached to my safe place. In the short time that I have been a member here, it's somewhere that I truly feel safe and accepted. I feel like I will be able to express my ups and downs, my trials and tribulations, my fears and my accomplishments, and most importantly my tears and my joy, without repercussions or judgement. I would love to spend all my waking time here, and I need to suppress my emotional attachments long enough to be able to process the things I need to do IRL.

Thank you all for being here. Thank you to Susan for putting this all together in the first place. And thank you all for welcoming me so graciously into the sisterhood! I love you all!

Well, welcome to the forum and I can't wait to hear how your journey progresses.  Confidence this early on is a major benefit.  When combined with a positive attitude and a bit of patience, it'll take you further and more smoothly through transition than you can imagine.  Keep the faith and keep moving forward!

Thank YOU for being here.  I came to this community when I was first reconciling who I am, and it is an amazing place to be for help and support.

Anxiety has been a part of my journey since the beginning but learning to use it instead of being used by it has been transformative, albeit one of the most difficult things I've ever had to do

Quote from: KellyMarieinAZ on August 30, 2018, 12:16:56 PM
Now that I've been able to admit the truth to myself, I have a few new struggles to contend with. These definitely aren't bad, per se, but they could potentially cause a new type of anxiety. I also know that these are fairly common for anyone that has let the proverbial cat out of the bag.

I'm just expressing myself here, and am working through these as part of my counseling and personal growth in my transition. (Whatever that remains to be)

1) I am on an emotional roller coaster ride, and I haven't even started HRT. I have felt joy this week that I have never remember feeling before in my life. I have fear of what's to come, where my marriage and friendship with my wife will end up, how will my family life turn out when I finally reveal my truths. I have confidence that I haven't felt in a very long time. Yet, in the end, I feel comfort like I've never known, in what's to come.

2) My thoughts are overcome with my new found freedom of thought and emotion. I can't stop thinking about how it will feel to start HRT, going out to get a new wardrobe, imagining what work would be like if I transitioned there, and being able to live my life according to who I really am. A woman.

3) Becoming attached to my safe place. In the short time that I have been a member here, it's somewhere that I truly feel safe and accepted. I feel like I will be able to express my ups and downs, my trials and tribulations, my fears and my accomplishments, and most importantly my tears and my joy, without repercussions or judgement. I would love to spend all my waking time here, and I need to suppress my emotional attachments long enough to be able to process the things I need to do IRL.

Thank you all for being here. Thank you to Susan for putting this all together in the first place. And thank you all for welcoming me so graciously into the sisterhood! I love you all!

Hi Kelly! Congrats on your self revelation! The joy you feel now will continue to grow the closer you move toward your true self. Let's enjoy the ride together!