Hi!!!!!

My name is Joey Michelle (God that feels good to say to someone else for a change!!!!!!)! I am a transwoman who has recently been discovering herself and wanted to join this community! I am very grateful that this commnity exists and look forward to reading other people's experiences as well as sharing my own. Only two other people know ME, the real me, outside of this forum so it has been a lonely road for a while but I hope to be able to find support here as well as be able to support others. It's VERY nice to meet you all and I wish everyone the best of luck on their own journey.

I'm in a terrible place right now and need some help. I've told my Mom but she was only semi-receptive but she didn't disown me so that was good. I've yet to tell my Dad but he is really conservative and doesn't take kindly to the LGBTQ community. I am desperate here and need some help and I don't know what to do what he's gonna do if I tell him but I feel like I have because I can't go on living this way because I'm living a goddamn lie and it pisses me off!! I need help!! Anything you can offer in the way of help support advice or WHATEVER you can help with is much appreciated. i don't know what to do lol omg me pleas help. I just dont want to get kicked out and live on the street. I'm so scared but don't know what to do. please help if you can!!!

Hugs and kisses,
Joey Michelle


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Hi Joey Michelle 🙋‍♀️ Welcome to Susan's Place!  I'm Jessica.
I happy you've chosen to join our site.  It is full of information and experiences that can help guide us on a tough path. 
There are a few members that thought that there parents were beyond understanding and were wrong.  Love sometimes conquers hate.
I see your new here, so I'll post some links that may help you get better acquainted with the site. Pay attention to the site rules they can be of great help and don't forget the link highlighted red.  It has answers to questions that are commonly asked.  Then join in on a topic you find interesting and learn and share.

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@JMichelle
Dear Joey Michelle :
I see that you were just welcomed here by our lovely California Girl  @Jessica ....
... if you would, please allow me to also give you a warm WELCOME TO SUSAN'S PLACE

I am very glad that you have become a member of Susan's Place and that you have shared your first and most informative Introduction posting with other members here on the Forums.
I am thinking that you may have lots more questions and concerns, this is the right place for you to be to find out what others have done that may have been in your circumstances.
Be aware that there are a lot of members here that can identify with your situation..
 
You will find this a safe and friendly place to share with others  and to read about others similar trials, tribulations, and successes.  When frustrated or if you have successes you can share it here on the Forums if you wish and receive support from others and offer support to others. ....

***It's a very good chance that you might find that you will make some new friends here. 
Please come in and continue to be involved at your own pace. 

In her Welcome Message  Jessica  included Important LINKS that will tell you about Susan's Place.  Included there is information about the site that will help you navigate around and best utilize the features here.   
Please look closely at the LINKS in RED, answers are there to many questions that new members ask.   

Please don't be a stranger, we want to share postings and thoughts with you.

Again, Welcome to Susan's Place.
Danielle

Jessica, Danielle and others,

First, allow me to apologize for my introduction as it was obscene and desperate!!!

Thank you for the warm welcome and for the links provided!!! I will review them as I explore the site. Again, I apologize for my vulgarity.

Joey Michelle

Don't sweat it too much.  Emotions can get worked up when expressing fear and frustration.
You know better now, it's fine.

Hugs and smiles from a California girl

Hi Joey Michelle 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Hey JM!

First, will you be safe if things turn bad with your father? If not, it's probably better to delay your coming out until you'll be in safe position. When I told my parents about it, the only thing I feared is another argue with mother (which tend to be quite destructive but not very harmful). Take risks when you can deal with bad outcomes.
Welcome here anyway

Welcome!  That sounds like a tough situation you are in but at least your mom wasn't completely against it.  She may warm up more to the idea over time too.  It can be a bit of a shock and take some time to process and think about.  I wish I could tell you there is an easy answer regarding your dad and living situation.  Even some people who are seemingly very anti-LGBT+ can sometimes surprise you when it involves a person they care about, but it could also go as badly as you are expecting.

If you can afford to see a therapist that might be worth trying too.  They won't be able to tell you what to do but can help clarify some of your thoughts to at least give you a better idea of what to do.

Good luck and whatever happens stay in touch. 

V M, Alice and Kati P,

Thank you so much for your warm welcomes!!! It means so much to have someone else to talk about this stuff that knows what you're dealing with! Its so nice I'm crying!!! lol

UHHHHHH!!!!!!!! This is just such a frustrating situation as I'm sure you all know. I can't afford to move out of my parents house yet as I don't have the money to. I've applied for two new jobs and am in the process of applying for a third. I hope I can get one of these as it will afford me to be able to get my own place and get out of my current work situation which isn't very transgender or LGBTQ friendly also. I just need a safe place to be me away from everyone and a fall back in case I have backlash from my father. I don't really think I'm in any physical danger but he is very reactive verbally and I don't know if I'm ready for that barrage/onslaught or he may just throw me out. I don't know. Either way, I know he is going to be very disappointed to hear that his "son" is really his daughter.

I do have a therapist thankfully (Thank god for her!!!! lol) and she is great with helping me and actually suggested I seek out online help. She has been the only person I can talk to about this kind of stuff, up until now. Its just so hard as, again, I'm sure you all are aware of. *sigh*

Anyway, I'll go into more detail in a more appropriate thread elsewhere. Again, I'm so grateful for you all and this forum! It really is a godsend. Thank you!

Sincerely,
Joey Michelle