Today I did something that will have long range consequences but was necessary. My kids mother has been away for 2 weeks and will be away for another four weeks. This means I have to watch the kids on my own, and never get any time to be away from them. My youngest has accepted that my gf is welcome at MY (yes its joint property and my name is on the deed) property. My eldest is having more issues but I quite simply need Alicia - and she will be around for many years to come so Christine has to get used to the idea. She can, and will, but is as stubborn as I was at her age.
Recently she has been trying to involve others (my ex wife whose opinion I honestly couldn't care less about), My Father and sister to try and put barriers in my way. The first time I let my father have a say. This time I've told them to mind their own business and not get involved with affairs that I need to resolve. This probably means estrangement from them, but, since Dad doesn't accept me as I am and my sister and I aren't close I can accept this.
As mentioned in previous entries as soon as I am able I'm leaving this house, arranging a shared custody agreement and getting away from the stifling expectations of people who have no idea of what it was like to live in the prison of the wrong body for 43 years. Its sad that this step was necessary but I am sick of people expecting me to be someone I'm not.
Life starts fresh and I'll support my kids... but if my family can't accept me as I am, they can simply have nothing to do with me.
