Hey There!
I hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday season. All I can say is the pace of my life seems to be picking up, not slowing down. Which is not a complaint, rather I kind of like it.
I've had quite the year-- bottom surgery and top surgery. I described both to my therapist as "I feel normal not remarkable. Except for me normal is remarkable." The line still holds. Beyond trans surgeries the inventory of significant moments is huge-- I joined the board of an LGBTQ+ non-profit, I joined a queer speakers bureau, I finished my first distance ride (nearly 85 glorious miles with 6300 ft of hills, thank you), I was laid off, I got a new job, I took my first big-girl trip (to Europe, for work). I filed a case with the Mass Commission Against Discrimination, and I am probably leaving a few things out.
I feel lucky to have fallen into a few social circles. My cycling group in particular. We're all queer. We hang out off out bikes too. We laugh, probably too much. We're probably doing a sleep over new years eve. I am being told. "Jenn's first pillow fight" is low-key a thing.
Family life is a kind of detente. My not-quite-an-ex and I are speaking again. Although it seems odd I've seen here once this year. My kids have all seen me, finally. We're talking more. Working through anger and everyone's needs. The kids and I are going slow. It feels ok, manageable.
Yes. Politics suck. I've protested the person who reps the district in congress. I've met with my local mayor to talk LGBTQ+ rights. I have a few other places to try to make a difference. Stay tuned.
Other than that? I dunno. I've gotten to the point no-wig, no-make up, no problem. My identity is not tied up in someone else's idea of passing. Although this is a complex issue in my life. I admit real joy when I am in what I think of as low-pass-mode and I get "Maam'd". Not trying to pass and being gendered correctly is nice. If scoring at home... I kind of think I am going to try to date a little in 25. Imagine that. Perhaps the point of transition for me isn't just about dysphoria, it is about healing and feeling whole, being a better me.
Stay tuned.
In the meanwhile-- a few new pics. I like the one with the scarf, quite a bit. The other? ummm the results of instaboob Monday.
Be well.
~Jenn