More experience to add. While at the Crossroads Mall in St. Cloud, I needed to use the restroom, and walked past the cleaning lady to go into the women's restroom. When I came out of the stall, she was in the women's restroom. Nothing, as if I was a normal female.
Not like the time a couple years ago, I was in the men's restroom and the janitor told me to go use the non-gender restroom.

Later I went to Victoria's Secret and picked out 2 bras. The cashier informed me about the buy 2, get 2 free, and helped me pick out the free bras. Actually have someone help pick out my bras.
Michelle

I have been watching videos about RFK jr. Anyway junior wanted to make a database and use information from your smartwatch to see if you were getting the proper exercise.
A comment was made about someone hiring somebody to to take the smartwatch and do the walks for you. I begin wondering about these scooters going around the block or to the grocery store. I realized the smart watch thinks they are walking.

On the other hand, the smart watch doesn't know how many miles I put on the stationary bike. Technically zero, but pedal the equivalent of x amount of miles.
Michelle

There was a question about crochet. The last time I used a crochet hook was to restring a GI Joe doll. I do have a couple of the stuffed creatures here waiting to be done. My 7th grade teacher took my crochet hook and I never got it back. It was a male teacher in a Lutheran school. One of the older ones that probably had the attitude boys don't sew.

Another thing has been about loosing weight. I'm not even in that competition, sitting here at 164 pounds.
I have a papers from my medical clinic from way back in 2005. It shows my weight at 164 pounds, but it was at the clinic, so I was fully dressed. So I might have been actually 160 pounds.
At the moment I have a goal weight of 155 pounds. I might be doing things wrong as I weigh myself every morning before my shower. I have a food diary that I record all the nutrition information of what I eat. My food journals keep track of calories and protein for the food I eat during the day.
Michelle

It gets depressing occasionally checking the news. I see trump wants a parade. Lets give him a parade, they can all carry rainbow flags.
I watched a video about an African county deporting U. S. citizens that do not have visas. Its about time they stood up.
Michelle

I finally got to the Hobby Lobby in St. Cloud. It surprised me that they had the accessories for the 1/12th scale doll house. Doors and windows, electric lights, hinges. I had not thought about restoring my doll house, but I will keep that in mind.

I did find the polystyrene plastic that I was looking for. I decided not to repair the hitch on the jeep trailer to look like the original. I want it to look like the full size trailer.

I guess "toys r us" is now in the Macy's store in the Crossroads Mall. I will have to check it next time.
Michelle

Apparently, I walked by this stuff in the local store without seeing it. About fifteen miles to the local store. The polystyrene tubes, rods, and sheets are in the display behind the model train tracks. To the left are the parachutes for the model rockets. I was considering how it might look with a jeep that was parachuted. I wonder how difficult it would be to sew a parachute canopy out of a white sheet for my GI Joes. The dollhouse stuff is also there, including the electric lights and doll furniture.

About the "Toys R Us", living in a rural area meant not much for toys in the local stores. Especially the articulated non Barbie female dolls. 40 years ago I would drive the 40 miles to the Crossroads Mall in St. Cloud. Back then Sears was where J. C. Penny is now. The escalator is still there, upstairs was where the Atari 2600 video games were. "Toys R Us" was about a block from the crossroads. The first time I went and entered the store, it was a bit overwhelming to see all the toys.

The hobby shop was a bit down the road. I don't remember exactly were it was, but it was close to where the Hobby Lobby is now. It had been something like 25 years, and the streets have all changed.
Michelle

The 1/12th scale dollhouse is now at the house. I don't know where the furniture got put. The 6 inch doll is about half the size of Barbie. So they are known as the Half-lings.

While I was at my storage unit, I grabbed my Mego Star Trek playset. Those dolls are 7 and 1/2 inches tall. Everything seems to be there. I am considering measuring the accessories, do a bit of mathematics and make accessories for the 12 inch Star Trek, but I might be better off getting the measurements for official video set from my manuals and build from there.
Michelle

I was getting sore fingers, and trying to figure out why. It felt like something had been shoved under my fingernails. Even as I shoved my nails under the tab of the cover of the sea salt grinder, I wondered why my fingers were hurting more. And then I realized it was the tab. The generic store bought grinder is now empty.
Another one had a bigger cover resulting in a larger grinding area making it more difficult to turn. I managed to get the grinders off and now the sea salt is in an electric powered grinder.

I guess it is also related that I had trouble getting the larger lid off of a larger pickle jar. I was getting a bit frustrated when I said "where is a man when you need one." The lid was too big for my jar cover tool.

Just wondering how much of this, if any, is due to having both wrists broken just a few years ago. I am considering finding a therapist to work with to see if I can get my wrists to quit aching. If I remember right, way back when I broke the one wrist the first time, one x-ray showed my wrist joint slipped. It is the same wrist that went through the wash machine wringer.
Michelle

I finally got to Macy's. The in store "Toys R Us" was quite small, with just a few aisles. Outside of the store was an arcade. I checked it out, and found you needed a special card to play anything. The nearby roller rink has an arcade that uses coupons. There might be a Chuck E. Cheese close by with an arcade.

The iPlay arcade next to Macy's had a pinball machine, I don't know about the other places. Still it would be a 50 mile drive to play pinball.
Michelle

When I had my cataracts removed, I opted to get inter ocular lenses to be able to read without glasses. Most of the time I am working without glasses or wearing the blue blocker glasses.
It gets a little bit frustrating to get in my car, get out on the street and then realize I'm not wearing my driving glasses. If I am driving, just push the button on the overhead counsel and get one of my spare glasses. This is an old pair of wire frames that I had and just happened to be the proper prescription.
If I remember before starting my car, then I can go back to my computer and get a pair of driving glasses. I have one more pair that resides in my purse, and I have changed glasses due to getting a headache.

If I had considered it more I might have done it differently. Not need glasses for driving, but then needing glasses on the computer. Not needing glasses for driving would mean I could wear any kind of sunglasses. Although, I could find a pair of sunglasses I like and have prescription lenses put in.
Michelle

@michelle K
Dear Michelle:
What you describe is definitely a conundrum..
 
A mother of a friend of mine only had her cataracts removed
and did not have the inter-ocular lens procedure done due to the extra cost.
Now she is back to perfect vision with regular prescription eye glasses. 

For her eye glasses she elected to get the progressive lenses that handle the
both near and far vision and everything in-between. 

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

I had a list in my head of some things I wanted. White cowgirl boots, a white gunbelt with double holsters, a fringed vest, leather skirt, western style blouse, and gloves with fringed gauntlets.
Thinking about my Halloween costume collection, I stared wondering how much was from wanting the costumes as a child. Trying to find what kind of costumes they had back in the 1950s, about all I could find was modern costumes representing what was worn in the 1950s.
I decided to go the direct route, and specifically look for an Annie Oakley costume. I did find a white gunbelt for capguns, with Annie Oakley printed onto the holsters. Came across an Annie Oakley comic book, and on the cover was Annie Oakley wearing white cowgirl boots, a fringed skirt, western blouse, fringed vest, fringed gauntlets, and a white gunbelt. Nothing like the child's costume, but somehow I must have wanted the separate items to to make up the comic book version.
I wonder if we may have watched the tv show and commented on how we wanted the boots of any of the other items, and it somehow stuck that we wanted these thing as a child and never got them. Maybe told that when you grow up and make your own money then you can buy them. I never got the princess dresses either, but I have the Barbie princesses.

I've been watching a lot of cosplay videos, and thinking I might like to dress up in Victorian or steam punk outfit to go to the renaissance fair.
Michelle

I have received my new driver's license. It is not the enhanced license, but it now says veteran on it. I changed my name back in 1984, and never got my birth record changed. Fill out a form online to amend my birth record, print it out. Toss it into the garbage, and run a cleaning cycle. Reprint the form to amend and the birth certificate request. I have the order for name change, but might pick up more copies. I plan on driving the 50 miles to that courthouse tomorrow. Then I will have everything to later get the enhanced driver's license. I can also self identify my gender on the application for the enhanced driver's license.

Last year on the medicare yearly health visit, my HDL cholesterol level was too low and my LDL was ok. This year things have switched, this time my LDL is too high and my HDL is ok. Again, concerns about unhealthy cholesterol levels where an estrogen prescription might cause heart problems.
Michelle

Michelle,

Are you being affected by the wildfires up there? Or are they farther east?

I'm about 50 miles south of St. Cloud. I have seen burned patches along the highway as I drive. A couple looked like they were swamps that had been dry grasses. Most had been burned last week.
Michelle

I didn't get to the court house today, I took a mis-delivered package back to Walmart. It was strange, a name, a barcode and a number on the package. No address on the package.

I stopped at Hobby Lobby, looking for cosplay craft foam. It seems to be something that must be ordered from the web site.

Looking at my post about the comic book version of Annie Oakley, I can now say this is where my desire to have these items comes from. My desire for the white cowgirl boots comes from the Annie Oakley outfit, not from the cheerleader outfit. The cheerleader outfit also has a vest.

Growing up in the 1950s, my aunts and my grandmas would have worn nylons with their "Mary Jane" Shoes. Perhaps that is why I prefer nylons with the garter belt, and have the "Mary Jane" style athletic shoes.
They would also have what is called a shirt dress, with buttons all the way down the front. Currently I am wearing a denim skirt that has buttons all the way down the front. I might be drawn to the 1950s style because as a child, that was what was being worn and what I wanted.
Did I mention that my cousin and I would go through the catalogs looking at the dresses and underclothes remarking that this is what I want. Yes, looking at the women's clothes instead of the toys.

At some point watching a James Bond movie, and wondering why he can wear a skirt and I'm not allowed. I now have a feminine style kilt, that actually buckles in the opposite direction.
Michelle

Almost forgot about the saddle shoes that the girls wore to school.

On of the things to lower my cholesterol is to use more soy oil. No thank you, I went through a lot of pain due to the soy oil. I put it this way, I felt every crack in the floor as I drove over them with the forklift. It is possible that my PSA is very high due to the soy oil causing inflammation.

I think I read something about after menopause, the woman's cholesterol raises due to the decrease in estrogen. If that is the case then wouldn't increasing estrogen actually lower cholesterol.
Denied the medication that would lower cholesterol due to having high cholesterol.

I think last year my HDL cholesterol was too low, even though exercise is supposed to raise it and I was pedaling the equivalent of 20 miles daily.
Michelle

Some trans-masc video. Banned from male spaces due to biology, banned from female spaces due to gender (Identify as a man.)

It might be easier to say I could be banned from women's spaces due to my biology, but I would be banned from men's spaces due to my appearance.

I read some comments about how they can spot a transgender person, and I can say yes, I know, that's why as a cis gender male, I was told to leave the men's restroom and go use the non gender restroom. I did not look male enough.
Michelle

edit: I wasn't watching and signed on for 1 hour, need to quick post before I get logged out.

I know I say I have autism, it is not diagnosed. Put the other way, I do not have a autism diagnosis to get in the way of giving implied consent.

At least I was given a sheet of what to expect by getting female hormones. Some of them, or should I say most of them have already occurred. I believe I have Klinefelter Syndrome and don't have much for male secondary stuff to overcome. Interesting, a change in the smell of the sweat and urine. I already had that figured, I don't have the male smell, my body odor does not give me away. Some years ago, I realized when I left the bathroom at home, it did not have the same smell as the men's restroom at work. I guess it could be said that I smell like a female.
 I realize this, that is why, when I ended up face to face with a woman coming out of the stall in the woman's restroom, what she said was "your turn."

I might be better off to acknowledge that these are the thing that could happen, and not mention that this has already happened to me decades ago. Though I might still insist that I get the karyotype test to confirm the Klinefelter syndrome.
Michelle

I was doing some research. I had a sister that died as a result of a birth defect. Born in December, with a cleft lip and palate, she got pneumonia with her first breath. Just found out her extremely low birth weight would contribute to respiratory problems. The fact that I had a sibling that had a birth defect increases the possibility that I also have a birth defect.

The possibility that a scar between my legs truly exists is now more plausible. I told the therapist back in the 1980s that I felt I had been sexually changed at birth. His response was that doctors did not have that technology.
Later due to something I saw on a x-ray of my spine, I said something to my medical doctor, and was told that ovaries do not show up on x-rays. Again with the "it never happens."

I once asked my mother about the scar between my legs, and there seemed to be an attitude of how dare you check out your private parts. But then what makes you think it's a scar, maybe it's a natural seam.

Back in the 1980s and 1990s, I didn't know about there being different specialties for therapists. It would then be possible that the therapist knew nothing about autism, ADHD, or even Klinefelter.
Today I know better. What I need is a gender therapist. What I don't know is if the veterans health will deny it simply because of the word gender. Medicare will pay if a medical doctor recommends it.


I'm having trouble with my skirt today. I've already picked it up off the floor once today, after it slipped past my hips. It has belt loops, and I just don't have the ambition to go look for a belt. I saw 162.6 pounds on my scale this morning.
Michelle