Hi everyone. In my case I could recall being about 4 or 5 and knowing I was in the "wrong body." That was just the secret I kept until my parents had me in therapy at 13 years old. My therapist brought this out of me.

I think that I'm just the typical case but at what age did you know this secret about yourself?

That is a harder question to answer than it seems. 

At what age did I know for sure?  61.
At what age did I start to wonder?  Some time in my 40s, I suppose.  I talked myself out of it.  Nope.  Couldn't be.  No way.
At what age did feel something that, in hindsight, I could identify as dysphoria?  17.
At what age did I have thoughts that, in hindsight, can be identified as trans?  7.

I would say 14. I knew I never felt like any of the other teenagers I went to school with. I always felt different. I kept this feeling to myself. I never told anybody, not even my VERY accepting girlfriend. I kept my feminine side suppressed until summer 2020. I have my HRT appointment tomorrow. 

I have known since 7/8.. I used to watch shows like Dallas and Dynasty and think I want be her.I used to dream I was Sue Ellen 

Quote from: KathyLauren on May 08, 2025, 10:47:31 AMThat is a harder question to answer than it seems. 

At what age did I know for sure?  61.
At what age did I start to wonder?  Some time in my 40s, I suppose.  I talked myself out of it.  Nope.  Couldn't be.  No way.
At what age did feel something that, in hindsight, I could identify as dysphoria?  17.
At what age did I have thoughts that, in hindsight, can be identified as trans?  7.

This is similar for me. In my case knowing wasn't the same as feeling. I knew in my early 20s. But I felt since I could feel.

Quote from: Alana1990 on May 08, 2025, 12:26:13 PMI would say 14. I knew I never felt like any of the other teenagers I went to school with. I always felt different. I kept this feeling to myself. I never told anybody, not even my VERY accepting girlfriend. I kept my feminine side suppressed until summer 2020. I have my HRT appointment tomorrow. 

Awesome! Please let us know how the appt goes. Hormone changes can be very exciting ... I know for me I was so eager to check the mirror every morning. Best wishes sweetie!

Quote from: Alana1990 on May 08, 2025, 12:26:13 PMI would say 14. I knew I never felt like any of the other teenagers I went to school with. I always felt different. I kept this feeling to myself. I never told anybody, not even my VERY accepting girlfriend. I kept my feminine side suppressed until summer 2020. I have my HRT appointment tomorrow. 

This is a special time in your journey Alana. ✨️ I know for me and I'm sure for all of us this day was very affirming. I savor every moment I apply my patches.  I will never forget the day I started HRT. It was like the start of something that was going to begin to help define myself more than just in my mind. I hope all goes well for you today.

Quote from: KathyLauren on May 08, 2025, 10:47:31 AMThat is a harder question to answer than it seems. 

At what age did I know for sure?  61.
At what age did I start to wonder?  Some time in my 40s, I suppose.  I talked myself out of it.  Nope.  Couldn't be.  No way.
At what age did feel something that, in hindsight, I could identify as dysphoria?  17.
At what age did I have thoughts that, in hindsight, can be identified as trans?  7.

This is surprisingly accurate for me, too.