The stone removal procedure has scheduled. Insisted that it be done in St Cloud. I know what day, to be contacted later as to what time.
Something I had been thinking about, and I was surprised that the receptionist mentioned it. That was the possibility of driving to St Cloud, go through the procedure, stay overnight, and drive home the next day.
Michelle

Quote from: Michelle_K on June 05, 2025, 01:03:19 PMThe stone removal procedure has scheduled. Insisted that it be done in St Cloud.

Sending good thoughts your way, Michelle.

Quote from: Michelle_K on June 05, 2025, 01:03:19 PMThat was the possibility of driving to St Cloud, go through the procedure, stay overnight, and drive home the next day.

That is not a bad idea, considering the long drive.

Today was a busy day. Appointments made, I think three of them. I sent a text to my sister and she volunteered to give me a ride. Now that it's been taken care of, maybe I will sleep better.

Michelle

My mother insisted that I was small boned. So I did some research to find out what that meant. I found a calculator online that the measurement of my wrist and my height are put in. Doing both in the male and the female category the results were the same, Small frame. Using that information, go to a calculator that uses frame size and my height to find my ideal weight is 145 pounds. Finally find a calculate the BMI at that weight, and it in the normal range. It was also noted that BMI does not take into account how much weight is actually muscle or fat.

With a wrist measurement of 6.70 inch, the smart watch looks a bit large on my wrist. A lady's watch looks fine and the strap fits proper. In the store I should just drop the smart watch into my purse, where it can still measure my travel, and wear a regular watch.
Michelle

I made it to pride in the park. Picked up a sheet of suggested reading from the library booth.
I won't get to the drag show, found it it was a ticked event. By that time over 100 tickets were sold. I had enough anxiety at pride in the park, I don't need any more today.

On the drive there, I was wondering how much anxiety I had trying to live as a male, with the knowledge that I look feminine. I begin to wonder if living as a female would reduce the anxiety, or if it is entirely due to the autism.
Michelle

Amazing how people react to a turned around situation. Cheers to the woman who refused to compete against a man. Boos to the man who refused to compete against a woman. Of course it was a woman competing in a men's wrestling tournament. And how many would boo him for treating her like a man.

Like someone said this is a contact sport where he would touch her in inappropriate places as he wrestled.
Michelle

I have a few thoughts, mostly about gatekeeping. It seems to be an attitude of some people. They belong to an exclusive club. It is so exclusive that nobody else is allowed to join.

I put a post on another forum and it got deleted by a mod. I did another post stating I must have said something wrong and it got deleted. My second post was also deleted. Another exclusive club, nobody else is allowed to join.

This happened decades ago to someone I knew. He wanted to go work where his father was working. He was well skilled in welding, and he put in his application. Later the father asked the boss about his son working there. The boss had not seen the application. It turned out that the secretary decided it was too far for the son to drive and tossed the application into the garbage.
 Now I wonder how many of my applications were tossed into the garbage by the secretary because I looked to feminine for a man. Discrimination against me that I never knew about.
Michelle

I'm not too concerned about the gatekeepers on Susan's. I try to be honest (appropriate and non-confrontational but true to my own experience). As far as I know, the only posts I submitted that were deleted were responses to other people's posts that were also deleted. But I understand the anxiety, Michelle. Most gatekeeping is informal and seldom occurs in the light of day.

Quote from: Michelle_K on June 08, 2025, 10:56:22 AMI put a post on another forum and it got deleted by a mod. I did another post stating I must have said something wrong and it got deleted. My second post was also deleted. Another exclusive club, nobody else is allowed to join.

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I said another forum, a different forum. The only posts of mine that were deleted here in this forum were self deleted.

As far as You tube is concerned, they have bots that decide if the comment should remain.
Understand, I spent my life, with my parents not even wanting to hear anything I had to say. You're a member of this family and should not tell anybody else about what happens here (the abuse).

An example would be that I say I am autistic. Some in the autistic group might say that unless I have a diagnosis then I can't clam that I'm autistic. It would have been caught in grade school and diagnosed, so if you are an adult without a diagnosis then it isn't possible. Maybe it was caught in grade school and dismissed by my dad as "He's faking it to get out of doing work."

The same as the endocrinologist, If I had Klinefelter syndrome it would be in my medical records. Does the same apply to intersex?
Michelle

Thanks, Michelle. I didn't know we could delete our own posts. I'll keep that in mind going forward because I've said so many things that I wish I had said better or, perhaps better yet, not said at all. Now, all I need is an 'unread' button so if something I regret saying gets read, well, the reader can un-read it.

Quote from: Michelle_K on June 08, 2025, 01:19:40 PMI said another forum, a different forum. The only posts of mine that were deleted here in this forum were self deleted.

As far as You tube is concerned, they have bots that decide if the comment should remain.

I had similar issues on FB. A post (not mine) was marked as misinformation. I quoted it and explained why it was misinformation. I was agreeing, but got suspended for three days anyway. When I returned, people asked what happened, so I explained it, and that got me a seven-day suspension. You can't appeal bot actions, I guess. That ticked me off, so I deleted my account. Haven't been back since. 

What happened is that in their Terms of Service, it says something like you can't quote a flagged post, nor question the authority that flagged it.

At least here, you can report a post to a Moderator by using the Report Post in the More button (Bottom Right Corner), explain what the issue is, and the Moderation Team here will discuss what actions, if any, need to be taken.

I wish my storage unit was not so far away. I wanted to take some stuff there to declutter the house. I got about ten miles away and realized I forgot the nicotine patch. Had to stop and get some more. Self checkout stopped functioning due to age restriction on the patch, and someone had to tell it I was old enough.



When I got back, I had to finish mowing the lawn. With the battery powered mower, I ran out of power yesterday before the lawn was finished.

After the surgery, I don't know if I will be weight restricted. Certainly, I think I'll be restricted from bending over to pick things up. I was wondering if that also applied to squatting to pick things up. Not that it matters that much to me, as I have canned goods in a cabinet at eye level,and there are windows in the doors. That reminds me, I should take the cans of flavored water out of the cartons and put them in the cabinet. Just thinking about the pint jars I have with handles, maybe empty the carton of grapefruit juice into the jars to reduce weight. The same with the milk. And the pickles, so I'm not grabbing a big heavy jar. It might be going to extremes to get egg cartons that hold 6 eggs instead of 12.
Michelle


What I'm reading say 10-25 pounds restriction, plus bending, no biking or ...

I saw 158 on my scale yesterday and today. Today I realized something I had not really thought of. Yesterday My bra was irritating my ribs. I think I have it figured out. I had to do some measuring. I started out today wearing a size 38 bra. After doing some measuring and calculating, I'm now wearing a size 36 bra. Thankfully I had a few from long ago, and tried them on. I no longer need the bra extensions, so they will go in with the sewing supplies.

 Now I'm wondering what to do with the size 38 bras. I could probability still wear them if I used the inner hooks, But that could still be too big if I continue to loose weight.
Michelle

@Michelle_K

Dear Michelle:
What you describe sounds to me like a "Good Problem"  ...

Congratulations on your weight loss achievement.

HUGS, Danielle [Northern Star Girl]

Quote from: Michelle_K on June 09, 2025, 05:09:18 PMI saw 158 on my scale yesterday and today. Today I realized something I had not really thought of. Yesterday My bra was irritating my ribs. I think I have it figured out. I had to do some measuring. I started out today wearing a size 38 bra. After doing some measuring and calculating, I'm now wearing a size 36 bra. Thankfully I had a few from long ago, and tried them on. I no longer need the bra extensions, so they will go in with the sewing supplies.

 Now I'm wondering what to do with the size 38 bras. I could probability still wear them if I used the inner hooks, But that could still be too big if I continue to loose weight.
Michelle

I had a compound bow that I wanted to check draw weight. Trying to figure out how to do it, I found a luggage scale, one that a strap goes through the handle, and lift using the scale. I put the bow front down on the carpet and put my foot there. Withe the strap on the string, I pulled the scale up. The first measurement was about 24 pounds, just under the legal hunting pull. I adjusted the screws and now it reads 30 pounds. pulling the string became part of my exercise routine, starting at a low pull weight and adjusting for more as my strength increased. Even though I don't plan on any hunting, I now know the bow would be legal. And, it should be the proper pull for target practice.

As long as I now had a scale for lifting, I decided to weight the bags after shopping. The 11 pounds felt a bit heavy as I carried the bags with one hand to the house. Quite likely I will do my shopping the day before the operation so it will not be necessary for a week.

I'm thinking of a lot of other thing that will have to be done just prior to the operation, so I won't have to do them right after.
Michelle

A gallon of milk weighs about eight pounds.

My physical therapist had me start with soup cans, then water bottles, then bigger cans, to milk jugs.

He said the way to help figure out water weight is:

"A pint is a pound the world around."

Since milk is mostly water, a gallon would be eight pounds. But you could fill it with one pint, then two, then three, etc. The handle makes it easy to grip too.

It will depend on the size of the bladder stone, which will determine the method of removal. If it is too big then an incision will be made, and I will have stitches. If that is the case then I need to avoid tearing out my stitches. I'm planing for in case It is too big. I have a couple of things that will benefit, That I exercise, and I might get down to 150 pounds by then which would mean very little belly fat.
I will find out from the doctor, but I don't expect to be lifting restriction less than 10 pounds. Putting milk and other food into smaller containers is more for my convenience.
Michelle

I think most of my health problems are from the attitude of both my parents, mostly from my dad. Any health problems as a child were dismissed as "faking it" on "only in your head." Like when I had an accident with the ice chisel, and my dad blew about me self injuring to get out of getting out of doing work. I think about the autism, and a possibility it was caught in school, but might have been dismissed by my dad as "faking it." I remember my mother talking about the delayed milestones (?) think like sitting on my own, starting to crawl, standing, walking, and talking. Interesting about the photo of me standing for the first time on my first birthday. My hand is on the bumper of the car supporting me. but must of all someone had a camera to photograph my first time standing. So, I am going to say, I think it was staged, I was put into a standing position and then photographed.

My hearing loss is called autistic trauma, due to my sister cupping her hand over my ear to tell me a secret, and then screaming into my ear. The pain caused me to turn my head, and another scream was into my other ear. So now I am hearing impaired. I remember a hearing test in school, although I don't remember what grade it was. If it did catch my hearing loss, again my dad's standard response "faking it." When my sister one day suggested learning sign language, I heard my dad say "he's faking it."

Learning about the narcissist, and how common it was to accuse someone else of doing the thing he is doing, to make the other person unaware of what he is doing. So, I have to do the work because my dad smashed his fingers as a child, and it is too painful to for him to do it. Now I wonder about the possibility that he self smashed his fingers, and is using the excuse to get out of doing work. In other words "he is faking it."
But, karma caught up with him. One day he slipped and cut his wrist on some glass. he had to get stitches. This time he was not faking it.

This amounts to medical neglect. Resulting in me not getting proper treatment thinking the doctor might tell me I'm faking it. With all the aches and pains dismissed as "it's not real, it's all in your head," I now turn off the pain, and continue as if nothing is wrong. And when I am this close to finally getting my estrogen, I again hear those words "faking it."
Michelle