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Started by CaringWhisper, September 18, 2024, 12:00:07 PM

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CaringWhisper

Thank you all. Don't delete my account and posts, thank God we are safe. A lot has happened during this time, we were literally walking on a knife edge. The human body is fragile, I noticed how I aged over the past year, perhaps due to stress, perhaps for natural reasons.

I watch the world crumble on the periphery. People who chose the path of hatred naively thought that non-binary personalities who go beyond the usual patriarchal family values are harmful to the state. Let's ban them all, and the state will grow stronger, becoming as unbreakable as a rock. Only two genders, we don't need these perverts. But now it is white hetero male who is destroying peace, democracy, and prosperity. What irony.
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Lori Dee

Quote from: CaringWhisper on July 29, 2025, 09:06:41 PMThank you all. Don't delete my account and posts, thank God we are safe.

Thanks for the update. We are so happy that you are safe and able to rejoin us!
Great pic!
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Pema

I'm so glad to hear that you are safe. Thank you for letting us know.
"Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Lilis

Quote from: CaringWhisper on July 29, 2025, 09:06:41 PMThank you all. Don't delete my account and posts, thank God we are safe.
You're very welcome, CaringWhisper, and I'm so glad you and your daughter are safe.

You look wonderful! 🌹

I love your hair, and your cat is adorable. It's good to see you again, feels like it's been a while. 🫂

Quote from: CaringWhisper on July 29, 2025, 09:06:41 PMA lot has happened during this time, we were literally walking on a knife edge.
I know what you mean, reminds me of the forum's slogan "balanced on the sharp edge of a knife."

So fitting right now.

Quote from: CaringWhisper on July 29, 2025, 09:06:41 PMPeople who chose the path of hatred naively thought that non-binary personalities who go beyond the usual patriarchal family values are harmful to the state. Let's ban them all, and the state will grow stronger, becoming as unbreakable as a rock. Only two genders, we don't need these perverts.
Haha, funny enough, I just learned a new phrase in a another thread here today (Thanks to Tills and Devlyn) "anti-trans trans." Watch out for those too, lol.

Just trying to keep things a little light in the middle of all this, but seriously, thank you for your voice and for seeing us.

From one non-binary soul, I appreciate you. 💗


~ Lilis 🌹
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CaringWhisper

Quote from: Lilis on July 30, 2025, 11:10:30 PMJust trying to keep things a little light in the middle of all this, but seriously, thank you for your voice and for seeing us.
From one non-binary soul, I appreciate you. 💗
~ Lilis 🌹
I'm always happy to see you, Lori, Pema. Anti-trans trans sounds funny. In my country, they are launching a national messenger app that will replace your passport, wallet, and transfer all the information on your phone to the authorities. To encourage people to use it, they are attempting to block competitors. I recently heard this joke:
I answer the phone: "Hello, FSB (FBI analog)."
-"How did you know I'm from the FSB? This is my first time calling you.
-"You called me on my turned-off phone."

I was recently outraged by Trump's comment on the Epstein case. He said that after Epstein kidnapped girls from Trump's spa, Trump severed his friendship with Epstein. In other words, Trump confirmed that there were intimidated girls in his spa salon who could simply be taken away like objects. Is this really Western civilization? It feels like two Eastern despots couldn't divide up their property, the good sultan Trump and the bad Epstein. Will the MAGA movement just swallow this? Are they really such lost people?

Epstein: *abuses underage girls*
Trump: we're good friends.
Epstein: *kidnaps girls from Trump*
Trump: If you don't stop, I'll stop being friends with you.
Epstein: *abuses underage girls*
Trump: I am no longer friends with you.

That made me feel sick. Bring me a paper bag.

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Lilis

Quote from: CaringWhisper on July 31, 2025, 02:09:11 AMI'm always happy to see you, Lori, Pema. Anti-trans trans sounds funny.
Same. 🫂💕

Quote from: CaringWhisper on July 31, 2025, 02:09:11 AMThat made me feel sick. Bring me a paper bag

Agree, and it's disturbing, and I appreciate you naming it with that perfect blend of outrage and defiance.

Now before this becomes Too. Many. Politics. and needs moving to that board...

that's all I'll say about that!  ;D

It's nice seeing you back.


Much love,

~ Lilis 🌹

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"I'm still exploring what it means to be me." 💭
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CaringWhisper

Quote from: Lilis on July 31, 2025, 11:13:13 PMNow before this becomes Too. Many. Politics. and needs moving to that board...
I don't like politics, I just got angry. I imagined revenge, how all the people I hated were lying dying and twisting in terrible agony, bleeding to death. And suddenly I didn't want revenge, I wanted to preserve my humanity. Even a lousy sheep has a tuft of wool, as we say, even terrible people like Trump can be useful, they help us find common ground with our shadow. In each of us there is a dark basement where our doppelganger, who has been exiled, lives. We don't let anyone into this basement and we don't go down there ourselves. This basement is also home to scary monsters, such as suppressed aggression, animal impulses, unresolved conflicts, destructive thoughts, everything we condemn, and everything we don't want to be, but what we really are. This basement is a very resourceful part of ourselves. In addition to monsters, there are very valuable resources there that we once had to suppress in order to stay in touch with other people. Suppressing ourselves is very mentally exhausting, so when we look into this basement, the tension subsides. A mother who suppresses herself too much will hurt her daughter. For a woman to love her daughter, she must love herself. When she has too much shame, she will suppress her daughter, the ideal continuation of herself, the ideal container of this dark basement. This basement with shadows is especially evident in women or transgender people, because historically and socially, most prohibitions have been imposed on women. In women, this basement with shadows is very, very large, simply enormous. The more righteous a person is in front of you, the more ideal they are, the more terrifying and evil the shadow living in their basement is. And if you don't bring this shadow out of your basement, you will not live your own life. Look at Trump as if he were a mirror; he is a monster sitting somewhere deep inside us. Let that orange face with its ridiculous hairstyle remind us of our darkness; every person has this darkness inside, it is natural. I love my daughter, I went down this path because I stopped suppressing myself.
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Lilis

CaringWhisper, that is one hell of a post.

I always appreciate your poetic, artistic, and therapeutic way of expressing things.

I do love a bit of Shadow Work myself, but I'll need to sit with this one for a couple of days, and read it more than twice before I can offer a proper reply.

There's a lot going on in my own basement, and I haven't dared peek down there in a while.

I think they're doing construction without permits.

Thanks for this clarification.


~ Lilis 🌷
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davina61

My mum says the devil looks after their own but he takes his payment. Kick back will happen one day.
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CaringWhisper

Quote from: Lilis on Yesterday at 12:05:30 AMI think they're doing construction without permits.
Just remind them that without you, they will die, and that it is in their own best interests to protect you and warn you about the construction.

Quote from: davina61 on Yesterday at 02:48:07 AMMy mum says the devil looks after their own but he takes his payment. Kick back will happen one day.
He cannot protect because he owns nothing. He was created by his master, he is not equal to his master, and his existence has only one purpose - to be an executioner. What many people mistake for care is just a delay in execution. They say it's better to have a terrible end than endless terror, waiting can be the worst kind of torture, if you subconsciously realize what kind of sentence you will receive in the end, and you cannot ignore this realization.
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You know I love you and Kitty Kat both.

Giving you massive hugs.
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CaringWhisper

Thoughts out loud again. Why am I here? How does everyone understand the definition of "woman"? It doesn't matter how women want to be seen by men, more important is what they are really like beneath the social masks, ideals, and roles imposed on them. Relationships between men and women cannot be based on equality or love in the ideal sense, but on instincts of power and survival. Men do not actually love women, they love the image of women, a projection, a carefully crafted illusion that makes them feel safe, inspires them, or even elevates them. This romantic idealization is a dangerous lie that suggests that women are by nature pure, innocent, delicate, and highly virtuous. This is not admiration, it is self-deception. For them, the ideal woman is not a reflection of reality but a fantasy created by men who cannot accept the true complex nature of the female spirit. Instead of accepting this complexity, men have turned women into ideals of virtue, beauty, and emotional salvation, thereby depriving women of their freedom of action and turning them into characters in their own emotional dramas. This is not only unfair, it is cowardly. I know men too well, having observed them from the outside, and I can say that most of them are weak in spirit. When men dress their fears in the clothes of adoration, it is called romance.When their image cracks, they often feel cheated. Women understand from the outset that people fall in love not with reality, but with how they want to see it. In shaping their perception, women do not simply react to the world, they change it. Over centuries of discrimination, women have turned this into a skill that few recognize. Love is always a battlefield where two opposing instincts clash, hidden behind the illusion of romance. Men and women were never made for each other; they had different goals. Men love idealistically, women love instinctively. It is an eternal war where two forces use each other, shape each other, and try to control each other under the guise of unity. Morality is an invention of women for the sake of survival. In a world where brute force decides everything, women had to invent morality as a protective mechanism, emphasizing values such as humility, patience, and self-sacrifice. Women created a system that Western society still lives by today. Morality is strategically effective in gaining soft, invisible power and influence. The Western world as we know it exists thanks to women. In my understanding, transgender people are those who do not want to accept the rules of war.
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Pema

I hear what you are saying, and I think there are places in the world where those dynamics appear to dominate. But I don't think there's anything innate or inevitable about it. I think these are conditioned patterns adopted by people who are sleepwalking. If people awaken and choose to live consciously, they will follow a different path. Doing so requires individuals to decide that they no longer want to live their lives they way they were taught they had to. Not everyone recognizes they have that option; many who see it are too afraid to take the first step.

But it is happening.
"Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Lori Dee

In school, we were discussing the book "Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus." The discussion boiled down to "men give love to get sex and women give sex to get love." We learned that this implied a biological connection, which is inaccurate. It is more about personality types that are not tied to biology or gender.

For lack of better terminology, we labeled these as "physical" and "emotional" personalities. These were just labels and not to be taken literally. As we delved deeper into our training, we found that the personality type has a strong correlation with the relationships we had with our parents (or other adult relatives) when we were children. Psychology suggests that the Physical types use their body to protect their emotions, while the Emotional types use their emotions to protect their body.

At the extreme ends of the spectrum, we can imagine the stereotypical alpha male macho man vs the woman who cries to get her way. But there are physical type females and emotional type males, as we all know.

In hypnosis, each type responds to suggestions in different ways. Physical types can be given a direct suggestion ("You will quit smoking today"), while the emotional types respond to indirect suggestions ("You may want to quit smoking very soon").

There are a number of tests that we use to indicate which personality type a person is. Some are rather complex, but the easiest indicator is how you sit when relaxed with your feet up.  Toes straight up or close together = emotional type. Feet in a V-shape = physical.

The point is that human behavior is less about biology (sex, hormones, genetics, etc.) and more about personality and emotional reactions.
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Pema

I like that perspective. Thank you, Lori.
"Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us or we find it not." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

CaringWhisper

Quote from: Lori Dee on Today at 10:27:33 AMThe point is that human behavior is less about biology (sex, hormones, genetics, etc.) and more about personality and emotional reactions.
I agree with you, a person's future is not predetermined by genes and biology. We are all creators of our own destiny. But how often do people go against the crowd?

I look out the window and can practically see the difference between two worlds. The modern Western (modern, postmodern societys) world and its values are feminine, while Islamic civilization, Arab-Muslim culture - masculine. One world was built by women, the other by men. I don't think it's necessary to explain the difference, the last civilization was built regardless of the fact that biology does not influence personality. What is patriarchy? It can be described in a few words: "every creature in pairs." In the wild, it is normal for some males never to get a female, they are either expelled from the pack or lose mating duels to other males. In addition to the personality types and behaviors you described, there are also needs. What male would refuse to satisfy his basic needs? And it doesn't matter what kind of personality he has, he just wants to survive, the survival instinct is stronger. Different personalities can be poisoned by the same lie. If they have the opportunity to go against the laws of nature for the sake of survival, they will create any illusion.

P.S. I don't use scientific works, I just think logically, based on my life experience and the world around me. I may be wrong about something.

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