Marco,
Now I am getting what you were asking...a bit slow with this. I can tell you this.... prior to my "transition" I was a guy that had not been born with a body that society would totally accept as a males body, but I was still male, and I am still male...I liked Strait women then, and I like strait women now.... I did try sex with a male on a few ocassions pre transtioning, I think to see if I could please society....and I told my mom I was "->-bleeped-<-ging out" ( Not ment to offend, it is really what I said) when she asked me were I was out all night. She never said a response to my statement, but she knew what I meant!
I was a teenager and very aware that it was a gay act for me to be with a guy. It felt it completely and I hated myself for trying to appease the world around me, it left me with a very low self esteem and a lot of self hate I had to work through later.
No your not alone, I have never been with a lesbian, I have however been with a couple of bi women, but not any lesbians, like you I was not attracted to it, could not relate to a thing. I went to gay bars on ocassions with gay friends of mine. I have been hit on by gay men and gay women both in the past.
I could sit at the bar and look around and the one woman that I would be attracted to, was the only striat woman in the place,...how do I know? because I would ask her to dance. Some said yes and some said no...all made it clear they were strait, some went on out with me for extended dating relationships, drawn to me and confused at first,then aware they were actually with a male....others it was a dance, some talking and that was it.
So no you are not alone bro!
Peace,
Taylor
