Hello and welcome to the site, I'm also a newbie here, and although I'm only a CD so far, I've also been abandoned by my family and almost all of my friends. Its not easy, and I'm sure transitioning is far harder than anything I've gone through. Keep your heart up, its hard hiding things, but everybody has there secrets and if a man who has a sexual attraction to pudding doesn't have to tell everyone he meets about it, then you damn well don't have to either.
I know its never really that easy, and I think the guilt comes from thinking that you need to tell them about it because its a different type of secret than other peoples secrets. But I don't think thats true, It's hard to shake off the inner doubt of yourself being different from other people, but its a wall that has to be climbed by every person that walks down this road.
you are different, but no more than any other person in the world. And I hope you can find friends and familly who will love you for those differences rather than shun you, as I'm sure we've all experienced before.
(oops I think I went on a rant again, sorry for chewing your ear off hun)