So after two years of slipping between the cracks and simply not going to school, the system has caught up with me. I'll be going back to school in about a week, all things going as they should (I do have court before school begins, so if I'm not in rehab/a placement/juvie then I'll be somewhere just as bad...public school).
How should I deal with this? The last time I was in school I was a bad kid, always at the principals' office, getting into fights and getting suspended. I figure the past will repeat itsself, since I cannot and will not "sell out" to the mainstream ideals of how I should look and behave.
I've never really been bothered by the questions ("are you a boy or a girl?"), though I'm unsure of how to answer. I live in a relatively small community, and last time I went to public school I was ostracized...I would like to have some friends, I guess, just someone to sit at the lunchtable with.
I'm worried about how to get past the bullying and prejudice handed to me not only by students, but teachers as well. When I was in 7th grade, I was actually taken to a school meeting to discuss the way I dressed (I was a punk rocker back then), but besides caring about the safety pins and colored hair, they seemed to be very interested in why I would wear a skirt one day and boy's clothing the next. As if I had some sort of mental condition that made me feel I was a boy one day and a girl the next. That's not it...I sometimes simply felt more masculine than feminine, and vice versa.
So I'm rambling...I guess what I'm asking is basically this...
Should I discuss my androgyny with classmates and teachers?
How should I go about doing this, if so?