heya charlotte, feel free to post up any concerns during your transition, i'm sure everyone here will try and help, and i'm sure somebody here will be able to.

i'm sorry to hear about your suicide consideration... i've done that too... it gets better though. i'm not far into transition myself, but i know it gets better. i'm very lucky to have fairly understanding parents... not only gratefully, but statistically also... so i'll keep my fingers x'd that it goes ok for you. if it doesn't, then be sure to have a good talk about it all with us lot before getting suicidal again. i think there's always somebody around these boards.
well on the upside, you are at a good young age to be able to do something about it all; be glad you didn't bottle it up until much later in life. i think, you shall be beautiful soon!

wish you all the best.