Sorry for the title but Im just as much confused

So, wel all know that Mr(s) Veetje liked girls and only a a handful of boys( haha)..and some might even read my story about a lesbian girl I met this summer on vacation. A real dyke (thats what she called herself..and I agree^^) , she emitted something androgynous and well, that was interesting...we had a lot of fun together, and well..she fell in love with me, the first boy evah(!) she fell with. I was sooo flattered that I started to develop feelings as well

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Its now 1 month ago and it didnt work out between for us: she felt too much of a dyke to continue with her feelings for me and she had a relationship. And me becoming a huge bowl of insecurity wasnt helping either...so we left it as friends
But I started a new chapter of discovering and overthinking my sexuality; I used to think I was only into rather feminine looking women with long black hair, and a few dark haired men
But I feel like Im somewhat shifting in what I desire

I REALLY REALLY enjoy the presence of the FTM Guys on this forum, so much that I would like to kiss a few ( Ill admit, theres people like Elwood that I really adore

*blush*)
I cant exactly place why it is....Im a feminine/androgynous looking and acting male without the wish to remove my peepee since I like the sexual pleasure...and somehow I desire a masculine girl who doesnt want her thingie changed ( or does want it changed, I wouldnt mind)
A variation of "straight" and "gay" sex shifts thru my head when I fantasize about being with someone like that
I havent told anyone about this yes since its really something I have been thinking about since a month, and its getting intenser
Am I becoming weirder and weirder? >