I'm sorry to hear that, dear.
However, if you've made enough mistakes that you may have to flee your country, I would think you have a LOT to tell about yourself! Care to share any of that?
Some of us may have had similar problems, and may be able to offer suggestions, or at least hope that there's light at the end of the tunnel.
After all, the worst that can happen is that someone will tell you, "Yes, sister, you've had problems, and we feel for you. Now that you've vented, fix your mascara and get on with your life."