Over the weekend I was reading an article in National Geographic on the drying of the West. In it they were using tree core samples to measure droughts throughout the history of the Colorado River basin. The thing that stuck out for me was they discussed two types of trees: 'complaisant' trees and 'sensitive' trees. Complaisant trees do not feel the effects of drought. Sensitive trees do and show the signs of it in their gnarled, twisted appearance as well as in their core samples. The thing is, complaisant trees don't live as long as sensitive trees. It seems that pain and suffering are necessary to a long life.
I have never had that state of 'perfect mental peace,' and I'm not so sure it would be good for me if I did. I've been through a lot of pain and suffering in my lifetime. Would I like to have avoided it? Sure, but I would be a much different person if I had. I still have a lot of suffering ahead of me. But I know I need to go through it in order to grow and become the person I need to be for the sake of those I love and who love me.
QuoteI remembered a terrifying dream, but none of the details. I didn't want to think about it... If no one knows, it can be the same as if it never happened at all. So I'm secretly rewriting my memories. I've buried that scary dream. Because it never happened.
--Lain: the nightmare of fabrication
Avoiding the pain of the past, present, and future, will not make you stronger. But rather weaker.