Well I guess it was going to happen, I have been lurking about long enough in the shadows Hi my name is Cyndi (thats sounds like an intro to an AA meeting) now room says high Cyndi, I am a transgendered person who has only come out here at Susans today right now this very instant I live in consant fear of being outed I have done some things wrong (self medicate (ya I know)) but soon very soon the rest of the world will meet Cyndi and ya'll got to meet me first

You go girl... doesn't it feel great?

Glad you stopped lurking

Amanda

Hi Cyndi ,

Welcome to our little family. Over  2089 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion. Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers.  Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now.  And it is always nice to have another sister.

Welcome to Susans Cyndi!

Hi Cindy (aa greeting over )

Its no stress hunny, a lot of us started where you are now myself included, I really hope you're able to get yourself on the right path and move forward.

Unfortunately we eventually out ourselves and yes scary but also liberating to find a lot of people always suspected anyway so im sure it will work out just fine.

So a warm welcome and a big hug to you.

Vanna

Hiya y'all thanks for the kind words, (creeek slam) that was my closet door LOL OK a little more about me, I am a woman heart and soul but not the body I am as you might have guessed 45 I present male cause I have a very manly job and transitioning on the job, well, not gonna happen, I have a wife we have been married 20 years she knows but doesn't approve AT ALL so more closet time, I have 4 kids 2 of each and 5 grand kids 4 girls and 1 boy we live in rural Mississippi in the bible belt we literally have a church on every corner and a few corners have 2 and everyone belongs to at least one, couldn't tell by there actions.....

I have self medicated myself which is un advisable, I did get some decent breast growth, I was able to convince my wife it was idiopathic which we both know to mean for no reason, I hate deciving her.....

I am bisexual although I am not real comfortable presenting male and being with another man, I would much rather present female to be with a man. I have done both, absolutely prefeer the latter

Maybe more later

Welcome to Susan's Cyndi!

Many of us are in similar situations, as we do understand.  Glad you stopped lurking and ar beginning to talk about it.  That is a great step!

Kristi

Welcome to Susan's, Cyndi!

Yea, self-medicating can be very dangerous. I didn't think hormones were much of a risk until my first blood tests showed my liver enzymes going way up, and for some reason my white blood cell count as well. And if you're prone to clotting, estrogen might be risky.

And from what I've seen around here over the years, HRT and transitioning is a slippery slope, lol. Once people start, they tend to just keep pushing a little more... and a little more... so just maybe start looking ahead to how you might come out, if it comes to that?

I'm glad you found us! I can't wait to hear more about you and your experiences!

And be sure to check out the Site Terms of Service and rules to live by if you get a chance

Kate

QuoteAnd from what I've seen around here over the years, HRT and transitioning is a slippery slope, lol. Once people start, they tend to just keep pushing a little more... and a little more... so just maybe start looking ahead to how you might come out, if it comes to that?

Excellent advise... if you're TS there will be no stopping the slide

Amanda

I's just me

Well another mile stone has been reached, this may not seam like much for some but for me it's huge. I am able to shave again, I am clean shaven from my nose to my toes I'm just all giddy inside 

You see the wife is so totally against anything transexual but she liked a smooth groin and the little bit of hair that grew on my breast looked ridicules so I could shave there but not my legs or my arms, but yesterday outa nowhere she asked if I was still interested in saving everything, I pondered for a minute thinking maybe a trap but she told me she wanted to see me smooth again and left it at that, soooo I shaved