If you are a crossdresser then you'll want to focus on "illusions", tricks that draw the eye away from the masculine features and create a more feminine presentation. Do a web search and you'll find all kinds of sites that help in that area.
If this is something more than crossdressing then, as Katherine says, you need to see a therapist. Your focus should be on where your gender identity falls on the spectrum. Only then can you begin to look at physical changing steps like hormones and surgery.
You could also look for a local support group. This can also help in your quest to find out more about yourself and help you deal with family issues.
Julie