Ya know your lucky Chrissty, your not even on hormones and you look great! You have my envy! Hell I cant even look in the mirror without wincing.

Well right now I have the body of a goon.  Working on leaning my self out.  But to you who already had a feminine frame and figure I envy you!

Quote from: coolJ on February 03, 2009, 08:12:25 PM
Ya know your lucky Chrissty, your not even on hormones and you look great! You have my envy! Hell I cant even look in the mirror without wincing.

Hi coolJ, thanks for the compliment..but the thing is, while I know my body looks OK, I still have the same problem as you when I look at my face in the mirror.....

....Like they say, maybe we are just too cricical of ourselves

I think there's a lot of truth to that (obviously), that having more feminine features makes transition not only easier but maybe even seem preordained in the back of our heads.  I was confused for a girl a lot growing up and into my late teens, and having a good build for a girl was probably part of what drove me to transition.  When I began, I told myself that I wanted to be the best girl I could possibly be, and having a slim, shapely sort of body was in my favor.  I think that if I had grown up with a more manly physique, I probably would have suppressed my transgender feelings for much longer, viewing "blending in" as a girl as an impossibility until I got to the point (as so many older transitioners do) that it's transition or die.

Lia

Body helps thats for sure. Its a challenge less in all the ones that can come with transition. Some are lucky.

Now for those that think or say they are "lucky" with a feminine body before HRT post a pic or didnt happened XD

Also there is a lot of difference between feminine, femaleish and female body.

Chrissty, I thought you were already on hrt!  You look great for a woman who hasn't started.
Julie...57?  I tried guessing your age before.  Geez, I was way off (on the lower side)!
I know I get hung up on my physical appearance.  Wide shoulders, size 10 feet, my hands look too masculine (probably my imagination).  Some body hair, but at least I don't look like a shag carpet.
The thing is, when I really give it thought, I see women all the time that look more "manly" than I do. I see men who appear more feminine.  It's whats going on inside the gray stuff that matters, as you've stated.  Our physical make up really doesn't matter, excepting for the crap we put ourselves through to be more acceptable looking women (like my diet and all the cardio to undo nine months of body building).  You are right Julie, the brain wins the conflict.

Quote from: Purple Pimp on February 04, 2009, 04:10:43 AM
I think there's a lot of truth to that (obviously), that having more feminine features makes transition not only easier but maybe even seem preordained in the back of our heads.  I was confused for a girl a lot growing up and into my late teens, and having a good build for a girl was probably part of what drove me to transition.  When I began, I told myself that I wanted to be the best girl I could possibly be, and having a slim, shapely sort of body was in my favor.  I think that if I had grown up with a more manly physique, I probably would have suppressed my transgender feelings for much longer, viewing "blending in" as a girl as an impossibility until I got to the point (as so many older transitioners do) that it's transition or die.

Lia

I was mistaken for a girl a lot myself... Pretty much up til I was 16 maybe. I used to get pissed, but I refused to not have long hair >.>

I was built like popeye the sailor. I had large hands and forearms. I could pump up very fast but mostly i was a weakling compared to BRUTUS



I did end up a 34small C 26 41 due to many months of corset cincher training

I have always had large breasts for a male and really hated the shirts/skins thing.   I got maamed all the time when I was younger so I grew a beard.  And still get maamed from time to time, both on the phone and in person.

I haven't started HRT, but my estradiol level is 53.    I am really curious to find out what the E levels were for other t-folk before HRT.

Quote from: Jill on February 04, 2009, 05:10:03 PM
   I am really curious to find out what the E levels were for other t-folk before HRT.

Yea Jill often thought that myself and wonder if it's a contributing factor in most TS. Bit late for me as I am on HRT. Has there been research done in that area? I know about the research about the TS brain but hormonal differences would also be a relevant study. I suppose it doesn't really matter in the long run either way.

Stardust

I don't know what my E lvl was pre HRT but I know my T lvl was really low.

Interesting about hating to go without a shirt. I thought it was just me....... Never thought about it much, but maybe it has a meaning.

Hi Chrissty,

I think Im like you in a way...

my difference is I was always BIG...people always do the "muscle man" pose when they refer to my being a big guy. AND people always refer to me as "big guy"....

***throws up***

I have broad shoulders and a large chest, Ive always worn loose clothes...didnt know why....just did. Only recently have I realized that when I wear tighter clothes I look more girly shaped. I am fat, I know this...but its a girl fat...and I cant build muscle. I do have large boobs...im ranting, sorry.

I just hate my body...Im a HUGE person, I know I take cute face pics and even some cute full body pics....but when I stand next to my wife, I tower over her...my head is like twice as big! Im only 5-11, but gawd I feel so much bigger than everyone...maybe some is in my head....I dont know. This is what stops me from going out or being full time.

And I did feel odd as a child and in high school, hated to show my "inverted" unit in the shower or a pissing contest.

I have also been called girly growing up, and asked if I was gay? and are you sure?

Whats it all mean? I have no idea....Guess Ill always be "closet"

Quote from: Rita Irene on February 07, 2009, 04:04:23 PM
Whats it all mean? I have no idea....Guess Ill always be "closet"

Hi Rita, if I had any idea "what it all means" I'd let you know.

..then I'd write a book, and make a fortune!



Chrissty

My body was fairly feminine even though I was working out trying to get a girlfriend. I thought I cant be a woman.. It's not possible Im too big. "That is why I fail!"- A voice said. Yoda helped me and off I went looking at Porno's trying to figure out what I was....Evenetually I realized I was a woman or she-male ladyboy or whatever..Transsexual. That's the one.

Am I the only over-compensator here?  I was ashamed of how I felt and buried it with weights and sports.  I wouldn't ever say I look fem, I know I don't but its not how I look its how I feel that is what is important.  I am so glad to have found myself.  By the way I am 6-2 inch's tall and am now down to 220lbs from 285lbs 2 years ago.  I do have hands smaller then my sister and we wear about the same size shoe.  She is 6 feet tall herself.

I have a bubble butt (in shape, not size, it's still round/perky and I'm only 25), a small waist, skinny wrists, I cannot put on muscle from working out, I've always had a heart-shaped face kinda like yours.  In fact, I look frighteningly a lot like you!!!  My skin is pretty clear, not terribly thick (my nose is the oiliest part and is much larger than I'd like). Testosterone didn't really add a lot of bone to my face, just a bit that I could have reduced and shaped with FFS.

I come in on the "thin" side I guess.  But I've developed such a masculine persona, that nobody would even question that I'm 100% hetero (I would describe myself as bi, with my preference depending on whether I'm in female or male mode).

I would also add that my entire crotch/abdominal/pubic area is very sensual/supple/smooth.

My least femenine attributes: a thick/uniform beard that actually looks good, receding hairline, thick arm and leg hair (but little chest/butt/back hair).

I'm currently in the long process of coming to terms with my gender identity, so I haven't started HRT.  But I anticipate looking very lady-like in 2 years with big B cups if I do it.

P.S. You look great and have very female-range features.  If this is early in transition photo, you're gonna be indistinguishable from a GG.

I'm pretty happy that things are less hairy with my body. It was god awful before... I'm genetically predisposed to looking like an effing caveman at age 20.

But I still get stomach hair a lot... And some around my chest... I pluck a lot and I wish it would disappear!!!!!!!

PS:


Can someone please explain to me why I always pass at gas stations and Dunkin Donuts when I have a scraggly face and look and feel like the fugly train hit me?

Honestly. "Can you get her?"

Stuff like that. And I look like CRAP today!

Quote from: Kara-Xen on February 20, 2009, 09:43:39 AM
I'm pretty happy that things are less hairy with my body. It was god awful before... I'm genetically predisposed to looking like an effing caveman at age 20.

But I still get stomach hair a lot... And some around my chest... I pluck a lot and I wish it would disappear!!!!!!!

PS:


Can someone please explain to me why I always pass at gas stations and Dunkin Donuts when I have a scraggly face and look and feel like the fugly train hit me?

Honestly. "Can you get her?"

Stuff like that. And I look like CRAP today!

Lol.  I know how that goes.  I was constantly getting called ma'am and her/she pre  HRT, even when I was trying my best to present as a guy.   I might be wrong in this assumption, but I would think that would be a good sign. 

Quote from: Ashley315 on February 20, 2009, 10:02:30 AM
Lol.  I know how that goes.  I was constantly getting called ma'am and her/she pre  HRT, even when I was trying my best to present as a guy.   I might be wrong in this assumption, but I would think that would be a good sign.

I suppose so...

Apparently as long as there is fat on my body, no matter how horrible I look on that day and ungroomed and unshaven, I pass?!?!!?!!??!

Airfiejfineuifnsdufbdu !!~!!!!!!

Yeah!