i was so freaking upset because of this and still an
she was on the phone with her bf in the other room she thought i was sleeping in my room and i heard her talking about me to him and shes like *she* has big issues then she tells him i told her i thought i was a boy and all that jazz and then shes just like idk talking to him about how she cant handle me anymore and how could she change me to make me fixed lol
she never talked to me about ANYTHING and ive just been getting angrier and angrier about everything
i just want to be 18 so i dont have to live with her anymore because i have had enough
i remember this one time i had an ace bandage on and she feels it there then she goes ur just not right and that hurt and im tired of all the crap like that
she wouldnt know what is really wrong because she never talks to me
and this whole thing is making me binge because im upset and i just HATE this
i dont know how to make myself feel good anymore

*HUGS*

Mothers can be wonderful, but they can also be the hardest to get to understand the whole "I'm *not* your daughter, I'm your son". It's hard, and I honestly can't give any decent advice. I know after I came out to my parents they started watching me to see if they could notice any change (I'm not being paranoid, I *know* Mum and Dad were both watching me, I'd catch them staring and everything, and their bedroom's next door to mine, so I can hear when they talk about me too. Not always definite words, but I know when my name comes up ). Do you have any friends who know about you who you could move in with for a bit? Having supportive friends can make a world of difference. And if your mum wants you "fixed", she honestly doesn't know what she has.

Hang in there, mate. If you *have* to escape the situation, reading a really good book or listening to beautiful music is probably better for you than bingeing.

Don't give up, and believe in yourself. It's your life, not hers.

♥♥♥♥♥*HUGSHUGSHUGSHUGSHUGS*♥♥♥♥♥

William

i dont have any close friends   
i could listen to music or read a book, that might help

My mom needed some time as well, but she's really great with everything. It hasn't been a year now since I came out to her and she switches to 'she' very rarely... Couldn't you try to talk with her? I mean, if you tell her how you really feel and how you feel when she talks about you as 'she', your mother might understand?
A letter could be a good way either.
Hey, we are here on the internet for you, do you have any close friends on the net? Or just write down any frustration here in the forum! We're with you!
*Hugs*

yea i am going to try to talk to her but i came out to her like 2 years ago i really dont think anything is going to change and i do have some close internet friends

Yeah, I know how ya feel. That's why I haven't come out yet.b Knowing my mother, it would be exactly the same thing (except with a bit more screaming, as is her style.)

Just hang in there, only however many more years until you can leave and start T and the like. What's the worst she can do? At worst, you can simply leave her and lose all contact. Many people don't recommend losing your possibility of parental support, but your mother doesn't sound all that supportive anyways.

Silver

Emoboi, I would try and talk to her and ask her How she feels about everything. Maybe she is to scared to actually talk to you. Thats all.

Jay

If she won't talk to you, try talking to her...

Yeah, I totally agree... 'Force' her to listen to you, emphasize that's important to you!

:/ I've gotten that before the  -stares at chest- "that's just not right." line/thing.

Wow, that's awful, emoboi. :x