Hello, y'all. I hope it's ok for me to post here.
So I recently realized I'm much more "in the middle" than male, which has made me all kinds of confused.
As a female I was "gay". As a male I'm "gay". As an androgyne, I'm confused. -_- I know I like bio-males, and I identify more as male than anything, and I really don't want to give up being gay. But how can a guy be gay if he's not really a guy, if he's in the middle? I told my mom I figured out I like males, and she celebrated 'cause now she thinks I'm "straight". But I'm as crooked as can be! I'm in no way a chick, mom! *sigh*
I LIKE being gay. I was at my LGBTQ club at school the other day and I felt weird. I mean, the president's a lesbian, the VP's a gay male, and on Monday we got a couple new members, a really butch lesbian and a really effeminate gay guy, not to mention a couple of femm-ey girls who (I assume) are gay. We've even got an FTM in the club (my friend). And I looked at myself in this context and I just didn't fit! But I want to fit with this type of group. I don't want to be straight. I want to be as queer as can be. But I just don't fit, not even in the gayest place in school (BSC102 on Mondays at 2:30 =p).
Gah. I haven't been this confused since I was 12 years old. Anyone have any thoughts or similar experiences?