Hello and Welcome to Susan's, Matilyn!
I had a curious mixture of fear, depression and excitement after I finally came to my senses about who I am. It's kind of a crazy feeling. I was able to help ease some of that stuff by reading and contributing posts here at Susan's. I really hope that this will happen for you too. Finding a gender specializing therapist was even more helpful to me because he tailor's his advice and guidance so it fits diectly with my personal circumstances. If you haven't done that already, I highly recommend that you find one too.
For general information please feel free to explore this whole site. The links, library and, especially, the WIKI are stuffed with valuable information that will help along the journey. The forums are safe and supportive, made so by the wonderful members here and the forum's moderators. The rules are easy to read and follow too.
I'll be looking forward to reading more from you, Matilyn, and I'm again very happy to say,
WELCOME ! !

helen