i think i'm ready. i have thought about it some before, but not seriously thought about it. but it did come out of the blue a bit. and yeah, she did say i was making lots of steps forward, and that she wouldn't say it if she didn't think i was ready. but i'm still not sure. she said we could try it next month and decide on what to do.
i can totally try the whole talking to her in my head thing. or i could script it out on paper, huh? thanks for the tip!